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70 days. I counted. 

 “My thoughts turn to something I read once, something the Zen Buddhists believe. They say that an oak tree is brought into creation by two forces at the same time. Obviously, there is the acorn from which it all begins, the seed which holds all the promise and potential, which grows into a tree. Everybody can see that. But only a few can recognize that there is another force operating here as well-the future tree itself, which wants so badly to exist that it pulls the acorn into being, drawing the seedling forth with longing out of the void, guiding the evolution from nothingness to maturity. In this respect, say the Zens, it is the oak tree that creates the very acorn from which it was born.”
If I want to meet my future being, I have to let these two forces collide. If I don't start forcing myself right now, it won't meet the person at the very end waiting for me, they won't reach each other. The main question here is- Do I want to perform or Do I want to simply improve myself? Do I want to share my thoughts right now or do I want to save it for after? I already answered that question. I don't wanna save what I feel. I am insanely in the idea of the two forces to meet and I am starting with a single step. A baby step.

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