I don't know what to say...This afternoon I was crying because I had these failures I couldn't take and whining to my father that he had been partial with us through our education, telling that I was the one studied in semi-orphan missionary school for 7 years and all sorts of sad childhood stories to cover my grief and he frowned at me saying- "How can you accuse me of being partial to your siblings? I never loved any one of you less, how can you say that?" I could see he was hurt and when he left I was in tears, again whining to my mother and grandma how pathetic my life is...etc.
Then the whole evening I spent singing karaoke with strangers in an app called Smule. It's a quite popular app, and if you know me, you also know that I sing when I am in distress, so I sang pretty high keys, Rolling in the deep with a lady from China, and Photograph by Ed Sheeran with an American guy. I even got a like on that one. I already reached 35 recordings and having second thoughts of taking it as my career. Nah, just kidding with ya.
Anyway, so right after I finished singing privately in my mother's room I heard the door bell. And I could hear my dad, I thought he was home by then, I could appoligize. My throat was sore from all the singing I did so I was waiting in my mom's room for him...Then I heard my mom shouting my name, saying my dad bought me a LAPTOP. Like literally! My first ever laptop! I wasn't even expecting I would get it so soon. Today!
I left my mom's room went to the drawing room saying no way, he can't do that to me! After all the blame and bitter words I'd thrown at him this noon, he just cannot! But when I looked at the table, I saw a black cute Laptop sitting, A carry on bag, extra mouse for comfort and a 16 GB pen-drive! I couldn't scream my throat was sore and I was completely bewildered by it!
I felt so guilty. I felt horrible. I felt like I have the ugliest heart!
My father when I was hugging him so tight then said- "I couldn't take your accusations! Don't say I didn't give you anything."
"But I am so guilty of what I said before, I can't make it alright. I can't be happy now. I hurt you."
"No, don't feel guilty. You deserved it, I should've given you before. Be happy. When you're happy, I'm happy." Then he gave away his precious smile and I just melted.
This man has nothing but kindness in his heart. There is nothing in the world that could change who he is, He is such man who does things only with good intention, no bad can touch his heart. I am just speechless. How can a man so good like him be my father? What did I do to deserve him?
Getting a laptop was in my bucket list. Today it's fulfilled, I am typing from my first ever Laptop. Everything in my life, every significant story of my life relates my dad. He's the reason why I call it my life. He has never given me chance to wish less. His love for his family is not at all materialistic, but so raw and unconditional that you can only pray from your heart that he lives forever and ever because you certainly can't afford to lose a sight of him.
Then the whole evening I spent singing karaoke with strangers in an app called Smule. It's a quite popular app, and if you know me, you also know that I sing when I am in distress, so I sang pretty high keys, Rolling in the deep with a lady from China, and Photograph by Ed Sheeran with an American guy. I even got a like on that one. I already reached 35 recordings and having second thoughts of taking it as my career. Nah, just kidding with ya.
Anyway, so right after I finished singing privately in my mother's room I heard the door bell. And I could hear my dad, I thought he was home by then, I could appoligize. My throat was sore from all the singing I did so I was waiting in my mom's room for him...Then I heard my mom shouting my name, saying my dad bought me a LAPTOP. Like literally! My first ever laptop! I wasn't even expecting I would get it so soon. Today!
I left my mom's room went to the drawing room saying no way, he can't do that to me! After all the blame and bitter words I'd thrown at him this noon, he just cannot! But when I looked at the table, I saw a black cute Laptop sitting, A carry on bag, extra mouse for comfort and a 16 GB pen-drive! I couldn't scream my throat was sore and I was completely bewildered by it!
I felt so guilty. I felt horrible. I felt like I have the ugliest heart!
My father when I was hugging him so tight then said- "I couldn't take your accusations! Don't say I didn't give you anything."
"But I am so guilty of what I said before, I can't make it alright. I can't be happy now. I hurt you."
"No, don't feel guilty. You deserved it, I should've given you before. Be happy. When you're happy, I'm happy." Then he gave away his precious smile and I just melted.
This man has nothing but kindness in his heart. There is nothing in the world that could change who he is, He is such man who does things only with good intention, no bad can touch his heart. I am just speechless. How can a man so good like him be my father? What did I do to deserve him?
Getting a laptop was in my bucket list. Today it's fulfilled, I am typing from my first ever Laptop. Everything in my life, every significant story of my life relates my dad. He's the reason why I call it my life. He has never given me chance to wish less. His love for his family is not at all materialistic, but so raw and unconditional that you can only pray from your heart that he lives forever and ever because you certainly can't afford to lose a sight of him.
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