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I am in a position where I can write independently and forever about almost anything. I could write a fucking novel about my lazy ass. But I choose not to. Just because I have a laptop and my own personal space doesn't mean I have to write a biography of how many times I screwed up. That won't make any sense. My whole life, I am not making any sense.

Anyway, so the morning, dare I say afternoon started with a weird pain in my left knee.It's still paining right now and I almost can't move. It's one thing when both of your legs are mysteriously paining, but mine's just one and  I am starting to feel like I am a one legged person. I can't walk looking like a complete looser now, can't sit without flinching.

Evening spent watching Bridget Jones's Diary both the sequels with Mysha on couch with blankets, tea and dry snacks. I recommended the movies, I watched them once myself when my HSC exams were over and thought right away, I would watch them second time with her. Mysha is a person I can completely be myself with. Even when she judges, she genuinely does, she's never a critic tho. I love to have her as my sibling, and no matter how young she is, she never fails to impress me. And the internet is our oyster. 

Then I had dinner and telling everyone that I am in pain. They blamed it on my sleeping for abnormal hours and not doing exercise. And how pathetic my lifestyle is.

Do you people have any idea why I am sleeping like crazy and skipping breakfast... Why I walk while I eat? Why I dance like a freak, literally a freak every evening, well not today I'm in pain. What else can I do to burn calories? I only eat two times a day, I do dinner with bread, no rice and look I am already running out of vitamins. Calcium. My knee is sick. I hate exercise, I always danced it off, in my room, when I had a room.

Now I don't dance and sing anymore, basically I hate how I am living. Like a dead fish. Just going with the flow.

Today is perfect for wearing socks and snuggling up in a couch for a chic flick movie. But my feet has frozen, the pain increased and I don't know why I'm so annoyed at the weather. Probably because I smell, because I didn't bath today and because I've been sitting and lying all day on couch, no actual work out. I'm seriously wasting myself too much. I should do yoga or something. Waking up in the mornings is so brutal these days I can't even face it.














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