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Time heals pain. It does not heal the scars, the memories, the left outs. It can only shorten some heartaches, but not the feelings you once felt, the moments that you once cherished.
I thought when my sis would leave; I'd cry couple of weeks for her,frequently miss her.And then maybe, after months living apart we'd be fine,we'd be moving on with our lives.Cry less.Feel less.That's how it seemed to me at first.But it's not like that at all. I cannot just cry a river and get over her just like that. I can't forget all those moments I shared with her.Not even in a thousand weeks.Because those moments,they're unforgettable,it's like they're all sealed to my heart.She's been sealed to my heart. 

The only best friend I have in my life is Api. I'd caught her secret laughs every freaking time.It's me who knows all the reasons to the tears she shed. Her secrets.Weirdness level.Her most imperfect ways. I know every little thing about her. I'm kind of accustomed to living with her.And you wouldn't believe how much I prefer her opinions. I never changed my online profile picture without her approval. I know it's crazy but I'd never really choose a dress or shop without asking her if I'm choosing right.

One thing api probably doesn't know herself. She's one of a kind. And the strongest person I've known.
Some things I don't even like about her. But I never imagined api without her flaws.And trust me I never wanted someone perfect, I never wanted another one. She's everything I ever wanted in a sister.

My family would be completely incomplete without her. I'd be crying alone in my room for her to come and be mad at me. I would be dying to tell her the funny things that happened the day. I'd be killing to make her laugh by my stupid jokes. I'd be watching movies alone, sleeping alone ,wouldn't run to her with my problems and ideas. I'd never laugh so hard because there'd be no one to crack jokes at. 

So time or dare I say eternity, nothing can change the fact I had what I had with my sis. Nothing can recreate or spoil the memories I had with her or be having with her apart.She'd always be the person I'd look forward to. And I'd love her as much as I do now. There's no doubt about it. 

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