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Mini accomplishments so far?

My mom didn't let me sleep today for crazy hours as we had a house party to attend to.
So yeah right now I am feeling all dizzy and sleepy.
Organized my closet last night, helps when I am bored. AF.
Oh and I have a bad cough. My voice cracking. Not sure how I feel about it.

I've become sort of addicted to the thought of him. Each day passes, and I crave to see him or stalk
his profile. Not a healthy situation. My classes gonna start from the day after tomorrow. I don't know, have become sorta attention seeker lately. He is not giving me any notification on  fb so I feel kinda...ignored. Geez. I am so desperate for his attention. I am loathing myself right now. God. Help. Please free me from this terrible choice of one way love. I am getting sick of this. It is a pain. I wish I could use all this energy onto someone who will take it. Such a waste on him.

I have to gain more self-esteem. I have to do all the classy lady shit.
The day after tomorrow. I will see him and talk as if, he is merely someone in my life.

I have realized something. I treat him as if he is so perfect. But no, he has imperfections. I have seen his both sides. He is not this perfect dude I fancy him to be. It's just the idea, the concept of him....I should get a boyfriend. Really, I don't see any other way how I can get over him. Nope. 










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