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Dear B.

It is 4 in the morning. The reason that I am awake. My accounting homework. And also that I have to write to you. Today, meaning reverse back to let's say 16 hours...

One of my friend's birthday was today. She is quite popular among us. So we ordered a fancy cake, collecting money from everyone and we bunked our Eco class. I am so not proud of that. Here at my house my parents were thinking I was in the class, making notes, trying hard and there I was actually blowing balloons and hanging out at the cafe. I felt bad. And I promise I will never do this again.

Anyway, so as I had planned before, like on previous post I will completely ignore him, I did. The other day. I didn't look at him. The singer guy. We didn't talk. Like he said maybe one or two words to me. Then again, I somehow managed to accuse him of making my bag all drenched in water. When I asked him about it he was bemused at how much I judge his character to be. He didn't take it well. All he did was giving me back a passport size photograph of my father that was in my bag before and his kind heart sort of thought saving it in his wallet and later handing it over to me. I felt guilty when I found out that my water bottle leaked. He didn't play those stupid games with me.

However today, my glasses he stole. I was just being polite. I was just telling my another friend that he is a good man, he would never play any mean games with anyone. I was wrong. You know, how much blind I am without my glasses. I barely see faces! And he took the advantage of that. Took my glasses and for like more than half an hour I had to follow him around to take it back. And meanwhile, he did what he typically does, saying mean things like I have a big forehead, my hairs too messy and I was almost getting mad until...until he said the sweetest thing that made me forgive him for whatever foolish games he plays with me. He said, it was a good idea stealing my glasses, or else he wouldn't get to spend some time with me. I was more than giggly...Well only in the inside. Outside I pretended like- I am too cool for you. 

I don't know, I guess I don't hang out with him much so I have obsessions. If I continue this, somehow, in some way may be my obsessions for him will get cleared out and he will be a good friend of mine. I really like him to be my friend. He is interesting. and also I secretly want to learn to play chords. He plays decent guitar and knows tons of (My fav)songs.

Maybe he has some idea. I bet he could see through my nervousness. Really. I think he knows that's why he gives attention to me sometimes. And I take it. UGH. I could really use some self-esteem.

And by the way, I had lot to tell you. Like a lot. But can't do now. I have class tomorrow.
One irrelevant information. I heard it from T that Meanie(the guy who dropped out at 3rd year and joined our uni) and Slutty(his ex. Geez. I really am short of good names) did it and she gave him boob f***. That's like I expected least from Meanie. He is turning into a maniac. He doesn't respect ladies, changes girlfriends like changes clothes. He recently got another. This ones kind of good compared to his ex. She encourages him to quit smoking. I just want Meanie to change a bit. I feel like he has lots of issues. And that is why he is always mean and rough.

Anyway.
Should head back to sleep. Urgent. I am slowly turning into a zombie. I should have slept. Should have! Tomorrow is going to be so hard!












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