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Dear B,

My sister has lost her wedding ring. She called my mother and you know my mom. She is hypertensive. Can you picture what might be going into her mind right now, all the horrors until my sis finds it back.

Anyway, not yours to be concerned about. I just don't find anything quite happening with my life right now.

So basically, I woke up late, that is no surprise tho, and had brunch and then I picked up my phone, did some searching. Do you know, Charlie Sheen was diagnosed HIV positive 4 years ago? I knew he would suffer from some mortal disease as his life is unconventionally messy. He is so much like his character he used to play on TV. But I like him, for I don't know. He is interesting. The time he left Two and a half man I kind of stopped watching the show. Nothing is same without Uncle Charlie. He was the magnet of the show. Ashton Kutcher is just sweetheart. The show needs some devil energy.

So Eid is coming up. No plans whatsoever. I just don't like the concept of this Eid. Blood puddles on road. Smells of raw meat. Doesn't actually help going outside or staying home.

Being away from home, being on a foreign land without family is my all time fantasy now. Hope to travel after getting old. I am old enough, I know, but just don't have the money to. You know, sometimes, I ache to just leave everything and everyone behind me. I ache to stop thinking about the shortage of money.

Money. What miraculous things it can bring. It has brought classes, it has drawn the line of limitations in reality. What if everything in the world was just free. But no. You have to pay for every little thing. If I had enough money I would have been a gypsy. I mean a modern gypsy with plane tickets and visa.

Okay. My mom has made Chotpoti. My stomach wants it. Chao. 







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