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Dear B.

Done with Eid. Now having coke and chilling. Beverage of course, cocacolla.

Woke at 2pm today so I'll let you wonder how the day went.

Feeling blue all of a sudden. That boy I've been obsessing over, his profile picture just popped up in my newsfeed. First thing I saw when I logged in. I don't know maybe it's God's cruel way of telling me how much I want someone I can't have. He is a social butterfly, if that's the right word for him. He has so many people lined up for him (just a blind guess), always commenting on his pictures, most people that comment are hopeless females, although not quite sure if they're hopeless, they're just good friends, I AM NOT EVEN THAT! I am no one in his life. Like really. It's kinda sad.

It is also kinda sad that his girlfriend never comments. Like in old pictures, she had but on the recent ones I've never seen a comment. That's just I don't know, rude maybe? If he were my boyfriend, I would make some kind of remark on every photos he'd share. That would be too clingy tho...I don't blame his girlfriend, she has lot in her plate. Studying in one of the best business schools in our country, man that takes talent. She is probably busy with her life. She doesn't waste her time on focusing on the image of their relationship. Don't blame her at all. As pathetic it may sound, I also didn't see his comment on his girlfriend's pictures, may be likes and reactions but no comment. Geez I am so lifeless that I stalk other couple's profiles on facebook. I should really stop doing this useless stuff.  Anyway, it suggests that they're both inexpressive of their relationship online lately, which shouldn't concern me, but it does somewhat I don't know why. I just see his effort, mostly on this relation based on their love story that I heard from him twice. By the way, he uploaded a temporary profile picture on her birthday and the caption was on fleek. That's just sweet. She hadn't replied anything just reacted heart on it. I was hoping she would write something back for the public to see. Anyway, maybe she will write something on his birthday, which is coming up next month. Maybe that's her plan. I am no one to judge like this. I am not jealous it's just I am bored and these two people are my online entertainment. I like reading comments on their photos, I like his captions, I like her photos, I like reading comments under her photos, I like stalking their old pictures that look so much distant than what they look like now and yeah this has become kind of a thing for me now. I am enjoying this. :D If that makes me a lifeless hopeless single girl than let me be.

Someday. I would find no time for this useless shit. I would be too busy talking with someone I like. And I will forget about this whole thing. About him. About how I got shivers when he sang or sat beside me. About how awkward he made me feel once. I will forget every little detail. And he would count as a past I'd care less about. Looking forward to that day to come.

Can't wait to be free from the thoughts of him.












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