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Not feeling like living these days
Last night I talked with strangers on an app named Wakie, I was feeling that much lonely.
There was this boy same as my age from Brazil, he wanted to practice English
So I talked with him for a while. He was very keen to learn this language.
I told him about my country.
Then because of network clash, I couldn't hear him anymore.
SO I cut the line and went back to sleep. It was 5 am then.
I woke up at 5.30 pm. feeling sick of oversleeping,
Now my hair's itchy because I haven't washed my hair for 3 days in a row.
These days I don't even feel like taking a bath. There is this boy in our group, who doesn't shower. I am turning into him.
Right now my mother is watching tv series, and I am worried about how I am going to sleep at night,
Last night I wasted being awake and today I wasted in sleep. The whole fucking day.
My room looks like a fucking mess, everyday I promise myself I would clean up but I end up doing nothing.
My days are unproductive and vague.
I wish I could help change the world or something...oh by the way, do you know Justin Bieber deleted his instagram account? Yeah, because he had this comment fight with his ex-girlfriend Selena and he was receiving hate comments about his new girlfriend so..He quit Instagram. Help change the world was written on his bio in his profile that he removed. So I felt like telling you.
Last night, I stalked Christina Grimmie. Do you know Grimmie? She was this bright girl, with a voice of a rock-star can't believe yet she died via shot gun...I don't know why would someone shot her dead, she is just innocent, she was doing her job which is singing in a concert, minding her own fucking business, and she was so young, had so many years ahead of her. Looking through her instagram pictures gave me an insight. You never know what might happen before your eyes. You never know. So live loud. Can't believe I am saying this who 24/7 feels like not living, who finds no purpose to wake up.
Why should I wake up? Please God. Find me a reason. What is the point of living like this?
How am I going to make my existence, meaningful?

I don't know just what happened up here. What the hell did I write....It looks like a jumble of words.

I am going shower now. Sorry if I bothered you with this meaningless post. 


 

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