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I just realized only 4 and half months are left of 2016. Then we'll start on a new digit.I will be another year old. It scares me literally how time flies. Sadly enough there's no achievement I unlocked to mark this year. It almost happens every fucking year. I don't see myself progressing.
Although I had spent three months without my family, does that count as something?

Oh and I also ramp walked on stage in cultural night, have I told you before. It was so awkward walking like model. Thank god I wasn't alone, D was there with me. We also sang Fix You as a collab with the big group I hung out with on that function. The first time I ever did something without being just an audience. That night was spectacular. I will never forget. The rush I felt in my blood while singing to the crowd, they held their phones up flashing lights. We were singing out of scale though because most of us couldn't sing, we were all bathroom singers, but never did it hold our passion inside. It felt like a dream.

I have woke up late today, my parents are so disappointed at me. My father thinks I am going to get a complex disease if I go on like this, It's true tho. He is very much concerned. Always trying to feed me something that has nutrition, to get me immunized. lol. I didn't know this word actually exist. Immunized. Did I use it correctly?

To tell you the truth, I've become more of a careless person nowadays. A full on don't give a fuck-person. I just don't know how it happened. I don't seem to care about anything anymore. And it isn't bothering me, Like I am okay with feeling numb about the world now.

Life has never been so vague. No purpose. Nothing. I wake up and literally spend the day doing nothing. Oh that reminds me, I have to shower. I haven't showered since....yesterday. Yet I manage to stink.







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