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Is it humanly possible to watch all the cool Tv shows and movies in a lifetime?

So here's what I've been planning to do. Since, Hollywood is a good conversation starter also helpful to find common grounds, I am going to binge-watch all the movies, tv shows my friends mainly talk about. Or today's young generation talks about. Fuck. It's a lot. I haven't finished watching GOT yet. It's like the king of all shows now. You see, how much behind I am? And how uncool that makes me as a person?

Last night- I scored. First I watched this movie this one boy suggested in our group and turtle dove sent heart emoji saying this movie is worth watching, so I watched it. It was actually good. Me, earl and the Dying Girl. Then okay, I was reading this book The perks of Being a Wallflower, well because a month back, two of my friends were talking about the book, saying it's a good read, and one of my friends said she even marked all the good lines on the book, she loved it that much...So that was when I marked it in my mind that, when I go home I will download the pdf and start reading it. So here I was, reading the book realizing that I had watched the movie version way back, when I was maybe sixteen but not understanding a thing. But now that I had been reading the story, if I start the movie again where I left off years back, I would maybe like it. So I started the movie in the midway of my reading and paused when necessary(When I am ahead in the movie) and read the book and resumed the movie again. Basically, I was multitasking. But I finished the movie before finishing the book so now I have to read through the last few pages I am already done watching it in the movie.

Am I turning into a freak lately? Maybe. It's just that, I have been feeling left out. When I cannot participate in conversations, when all they could refer is tv show characters and scenes, I get a feeling like I am invisible...SO I have decided to watch everything...to be able debate or at least have something to talk about.

Do I want to be someone I am not? Yeah, it is because of the self-loathing I do. Actually not self-loath. Lack of self-love, lack of confidence and much of inner-criticism. And this semester break, I want to turn myself into someone interesting. To be that I have to watch a lot of movies and read books.I am a work in progress...





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