Skip to main content
Is it humanly possible to watch all the cool Tv shows and movies in a lifetime?

So here's what I've been planning to do. Since, Hollywood is a good conversation starter also helpful to find common grounds, I am going to binge-watch all the movies, tv shows my friends mainly talk about. Or today's young generation talks about. Fuck. It's a lot. I haven't finished watching GOT yet. It's like the king of all shows now. You see, how much behind I am? And how uncool that makes me as a person?

Last night- I scored. First I watched this movie this one boy suggested in our group and turtle dove sent heart emoji saying this movie is worth watching, so I watched it. It was actually good. Me, earl and the Dying Girl. Then okay, I was reading this book The perks of Being a Wallflower, well because a month back, two of my friends were talking about the book, saying it's a good read, and one of my friends said she even marked all the good lines on the book, she loved it that much...So that was when I marked it in my mind that, when I go home I will download the pdf and start reading it. So here I was, reading the book realizing that I had watched the movie version way back, when I was maybe sixteen but not understanding a thing. But now that I had been reading the story, if I start the movie again where I left off years back, I would maybe like it. So I started the movie in the midway of my reading and paused when necessary(When I am ahead in the movie) and read the book and resumed the movie again. Basically, I was multitasking. But I finished the movie before finishing the book so now I have to read through the last few pages I am already done watching it in the movie.

Am I turning into a freak lately? Maybe. It's just that, I have been feeling left out. When I cannot participate in conversations, when all they could refer is tv show characters and scenes, I get a feeling like I am invisible...SO I have decided to watch everything...to be able debate or at least have something to talk about.

Do I want to be someone I am not? Yeah, it is because of the self-loathing I do. Actually not self-loath. Lack of self-love, lack of confidence and much of inner-criticism. And this semester break, I want to turn myself into someone interesting. To be that I have to watch a lot of movies and read books.I am a work in progress...





Comments

Post a Comment

Popular posts from this blog

opposite sides of a coin

Hi B,  I've been sort of busy with the training for the job and have another interview coming tomorrow. I am torn between staying with the current job and switching or keeping both as part times. I don't know, I guess I will have a decision made if the interview goes well. I have been traveling far for the current one and every time I get on the bus or the the train I feel depression kicking in full force. Suddenly I remember home, the comfort of being around my loved ones, the easy life I once had back in Bangladesh. Certainly, there are things that weren't easy but I guess it felt easy because I was more used to it. Transport was rickshaw and didn't even think twice before booking an uber because I always had some money with me. Now I have literally 200 dollars to go by and I have to think twice to even buy a cup of coffee or a piece of bread. I guess with time, I will be able to save up some money. I am glad at least I got to start working. It is still very overwhelm...
Post a Comment
Read more

spring is almost here

Hi B,  Season is changing. The hard days are almost over.  The city I live in has turned so beautiful, I get overwhelmed by the beauty.  Tulips are in. Cherry blossoms are blossoming.  Magnolia, Beautiful white flowers, name unknown to me.  Taking a walk out feels like a celebration of life.  It feels like I'm falling in love with the city.  I remember when I first moved here 2 years ago, the excitement and the crippling anxiety of starting a new life from scratch. Now, after 2 years, I feel a warmth and love for the place.  I don't know if I would feel the same when the winter comes though. Seasonal depression is no joke.  My new mantra for life now is to chill.  Praise the nature and find pretty little corners in the city.  Write poems.  Paint, maybe.  Seek positivity.  Love. Be kind to self. No rush. Read books. Just flow.
Post a Comment
Read more

healing in progress

 Dear B,  What I learned from the past week is that I tend to take on grief from others in my family like my own. Even though there is nothing I can do about it to ease other's pain. Hence, I suffer internally.  There is a song that I deeply connect with:  Tu Jhoom | Naseebo Lal x Abida Parveen. It kind of goes like this: “What is meant to be yours will find you through any excuse. My heart, understand that there is nothing in your control. You just swirl (let it go)” My brother recently got rejected from a marriage proposal from a girl he really liked. It was arranged but this was his first experience talking with a girl. Seeing him being torn left me in tears as I know how much he was hurting. He is such a gentle soul. I took his pain as if my own and could not sleep at night. Nothing I say could ease his suffering but I still tried to cheer him up. I prayed genuinely for him to be showered with blessings. I want him to experience life, be with someone who would ca...
Post a Comment
Read more