I have not cried since. I don't remember. I was doing fine I guess. I wasn't happy but I was fine. I laughed everyday at the class breaks because Batman is just too funny. And turtle dove was also being nice with me I don't know for what reason, her attention shifted toward me a bit. Maybe because that Sumo hurt her a bit and she needed someone by her side. I was that someone. I kept believing that I wasn't broken, I was fine. Until today. When singer guy kind of insulted me in front of everyone and all I could do was stare at him shocked and inside of me was cracking. Wrecking my heart.
He got mad at me for a silly reason. I am kind of ear sensitive. So what happened was, on the way to the restaurant, Batman shouted something on my ear and I screamed out because I got scared...And it startled everyone. So after we sat for our meal, I was making fun of Batman, I wasn't serious and suddenly singer guy snapped at me out of nowhere. He payed for my meal after, maybe as an apology I don't know. It didn't seem like he was sorry for being harsh to me. He knew exactly what he said.
That I don't know street etiquette...
I am sensitive to these things. When people point out what is wrong with me, I get super upset. And it wasn't even my fault. Why would he get so mad at me for that? Yeah I get it, he's having tough days but it hurt me a bit. I can never be that rude to someone. I can never make someone feel bad about themselves.
I didn't say anything to him, I came home and cried at the shower. I hate his superiority complex. I hate how he thinks, he has the right to say anything about a person's character upfront. That was just hurtful. What sucks is that, I love him. I care. If I didn't I wouldn't give a fuck about what he said.
I am just going to sleep now. Not feeling good. I forced the lunch.
It's funny how, yesterday I thought today's gonna go great. When you least expect something it always happens. I had a good day yesterday, so maybe I needed a balance.
It is just a bad day. I shouldn't let myself grief too much. I should let go. But the problem is. He is always on my mind. SO hard to escape him.
He got mad at me for a silly reason. I am kind of ear sensitive. So what happened was, on the way to the restaurant, Batman shouted something on my ear and I screamed out because I got scared...And it startled everyone. So after we sat for our meal, I was making fun of Batman, I wasn't serious and suddenly singer guy snapped at me out of nowhere. He payed for my meal after, maybe as an apology I don't know. It didn't seem like he was sorry for being harsh to me. He knew exactly what he said.
That I don't know street etiquette...
I am sensitive to these things. When people point out what is wrong with me, I get super upset. And it wasn't even my fault. Why would he get so mad at me for that? Yeah I get it, he's having tough days but it hurt me a bit. I can never be that rude to someone. I can never make someone feel bad about themselves.
I didn't say anything to him, I came home and cried at the shower. I hate his superiority complex. I hate how he thinks, he has the right to say anything about a person's character upfront. That was just hurtful. What sucks is that, I love him. I care. If I didn't I wouldn't give a fuck about what he said.
I am just going to sleep now. Not feeling good. I forced the lunch.
It's funny how, yesterday I thought today's gonna go great. When you least expect something it always happens. I had a good day yesterday, so maybe I needed a balance.
It is just a bad day. I shouldn't let myself grief too much. I should let go. But the problem is. He is always on my mind. SO hard to escape him.
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চুপ কর বোকা মেয়ে কাঁদিস না আর।
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চুপ কর বোকা মেয়ে কাঁদিস নে আর।
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