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What's sad about Meanie is, he is very lonely. I am lonely myself. But I am close to my family and cousins. I think he has friends, a lot of them but nobody connects with him in an emotional level. And even if they did, it has been for a short amount of time.
It is funny how fast a perception of person can change. Before I used to think, he is surrounded.
When he talks, he talks highly of himself. Anyone would think him as an arrogant,conceited person. But actually, I think he is very insecure. He needs to cover up for all that.
I don't know why turtle dove doesn't see it or maybe pretends to not see it. He has issues. He talks of conversations with his ex friends. Like in detail ....I feel like why do we have to listen to that? Sometimes I feel like all are made up.
And he takes pride in his friend's accomplishments which is also weird. Okay I get it you hung out with awesome friends, but now this is your life. And you are stuck with us now. There's no going back.

And what is so weird is when we have to say something he would say- I won't listen to this. He would say it in our face. Like straight up! And here I am, pretending to listen, from A to Z what he has to say.  Because I don't wanna be rude. Well fuck this shit.There's no reward for being nice.

I am not sure yet what I feel about Meanie. SOmetimes I include him as friend in my life. Sometimes I feel like why even I came across him in the first place. He is full of negativity.

But these days. I am not letting other people's opinion of me get in my thought process. They don't matter. 







 

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