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This week is gonna be brutal on me. One presentation, 2 quizzes, final term paper and home-work !!

Then Finals. The thing is this semester went off terribly fast and I have studied comparatively less. My determination was big, but attempt was poor and I wasted most of my time thinking about silly things. Making thought bubbles about things that actually won't matter at the end.

I was at Turtle Dove's house today. It was a house warming party. All girls. We had fun. I started to realize. These people now- has become a part of my life and no matter how badly I want to separate myself from them, I can't. I am literally stuck with T.  I can't abandon her. Mainly because, she has always looked out for me, shadowed me, since the first semester. And even if I hate to be with Meanie who is a good friend of T, I can't take separate courses...I can't distance myself from T.Our friendship has come to a point where, we are becoming used to it. And I don't want the hassle to do classes with people I don't know shit about. SO next semester, it is me, Turtle and Meanie again.

This week is enough pressure. I have to prepare for finals. I can't mess up my grades now. Have to ace it. So I am channeling my depression over singer guy to study. At least trying to.

Turns out, T too had a crush on him before. Secrets have been revealed today. Argh. Finally. I was like- is it only me who thinks this man is too hot to resist?

 From now on, I will treat myself like an angel. I have to improve. I simply can't just prioritize someone who doesn't give a fuck about me and looks down at me. I am trying to get over him. This is official. He has no business in my mind now.


 

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