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Found the cutest boy in class, We were in the same group today and he asked me to sit beside him, Not because I was cute too, but that I was missing out what they were discussing and as a member of the group I needed to be a part. He was being friendly and I was already nervous. I couldn't breathe properly and wasn't paying any attention to discussion. Funny thing was he wasn't intimidating at all. He speaks well, connects with people, smells awfully nice and....I wish I could date him.

Anyway, so clearly you can see, the group activity weren't going that well, one part of us were freshers and other part was senior, and as of my typicality counts, I am again crushed on a senior. He's in 3rd semester maybe so maybe not that much older. The embarrassing thing that happened today when I was called to readout the questions our team prepared and unfortunately I didn't pay much attention to the questions they had prepared, I didn't even read it first in my mind and I went for it. I read out loud whatever was saying in the paper on projector and guess what, one question was grammatically wrong! I could have corrected it but, oh I didn't knowwwwwwwwwww ! I read what was written. Our team sucked today! I hate it when I am crushed on someone and then all the embarrassing events take place. They didn't say anything to me tho, it wasn't a big deal but to me it is...I am not vocal, I was very nervous today. Speaking in front the class plus cute boy staring. Double doses of nervousness. I hate myself.

He was named alvee or something. I can't remember. If I have to describe what I was today I would say- a Train-wreck.








 

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