First day of rest of the uni life!
I had just one class so, nothing really happened between that hour. Saw new people, met a few, observed the teacher who was talking historically, at least trying to, because most of us were quiet. I actually don't wanna judge my uni life based on this.
Anyway, I just realized I have a lot to work on. My speaking mostly. I don't talk much to the teacher. And today we were given an essay, free writing, which I should have slayed, but I was mostly lingering on it. I had ideas in my head but couldn't really make it work in the paper. This usually happens when I am nervous about something. Other times I write without having to think too much of a sentence. I write what I truly feel but today, I wasn't really into it. And now I am feeling that I have a very few knowledge about things. I am not proud of who I was today. Silent, scattered writing, sleepy.
Tomorrow will be different I promise. I made a friend today, she seemed nice. And I am grateful for that. Because, whenever I am supposed to make friends, I get awkward and awful. I feel insecure that other person might not like me or secretly make fun of me. But she made it less awkward, she was already known to me since the first day of admission and seemed friendly. The world needs more people like her. To save the awkward introverts from being alone and miserable. Yes, you can say I am hunting friends. I have literally no friends in my class if I don't count her.
I really hope adventure awaits the other end. I hope I will have so much things going with my life. I have never been in such a place where I can meet challenges. This is my first and I hope I overcome it successfully and determinedly.
I had just one class so, nothing really happened between that hour. Saw new people, met a few, observed the teacher who was talking historically, at least trying to, because most of us were quiet. I actually don't wanna judge my uni life based on this.
Anyway, I just realized I have a lot to work on. My speaking mostly. I don't talk much to the teacher. And today we were given an essay, free writing, which I should have slayed, but I was mostly lingering on it. I had ideas in my head but couldn't really make it work in the paper. This usually happens when I am nervous about something. Other times I write without having to think too much of a sentence. I write what I truly feel but today, I wasn't really into it. And now I am feeling that I have a very few knowledge about things. I am not proud of who I was today. Silent, scattered writing, sleepy.
Tomorrow will be different I promise. I made a friend today, she seemed nice. And I am grateful for that. Because, whenever I am supposed to make friends, I get awkward and awful. I feel insecure that other person might not like me or secretly make fun of me. But she made it less awkward, she was already known to me since the first day of admission and seemed friendly. The world needs more people like her. To save the awkward introverts from being alone and miserable. Yes, you can say I am hunting friends. I have literally no friends in my class if I don't count her.
I really hope adventure awaits the other end. I hope I will have so much things going with my life. I have never been in such a place where I can meet challenges. This is my first and I hope I overcome it successfully and determinedly.
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