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I remember an advice someone once gave me(That someone wasn't me I assure)- "If you're not feeling it, don't study. Don't do it until you want to, and you might get more passionate about it after a pause. And you'll learn things quicker." I took this advice....Suck ittttt. Okay. Let me tell you how long I can go without studying- Pretty much every day. I never wanna study. NEVER!

Anika paid a visit this afternoon. We had a girl talk. And she confessed that she had watched porn. She was like "Oh my god, I am not innocent ANYMORE!" I blew a raspberry. I was like No BIG DEAL okay. You're a teenager with smartphone and Wifi. Do you think I would buy that if you tell me your eyes are virgin?
But I didn't concentrate on the issue-Because teenagers like to experiment and they get more interested on things that are taboo so I didn't pay much heed to her when she said she went on a porn site. Instead, I was honest with her. I told her I watched it too when I used to be bored and curious like her. Turn into a victim when you're talking to a victim. That way, you can relate and she can open up. So she opened up and asked awkward things like-why man's private part so big? I don't blame her really. Most guys on porn site show unrealistically huge..okay let's just skip that word..She has no brothers, so obviously she has never seen a. If Anisha were a boy, she would have got the idea- you know. But she never. Oh my god. I am talking figuratively now, aren't I?
I grew up with my brother, so when he was at the age of say, 3 or 4 I had the idea of how boy's looked like. But since she hadn't any brothers, she didn't have any idea about testicles. She was like- "ball shaped thingies-yeah what are those?" Whatever, she's a science student, she'll figure I mean "label" things out. But I gotta say she seemed very observant of it.

Finally, we talked about how bullshit those videos are and offensive to women. We figured, we rather like watching romantic scenes from movies and tv shows(FYI we haven't watched GOT yet). Anyway, I was relieved, the awkward discussion was over. Hey,you know what I should do? Counseling youngsters!
















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