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Eid and birthdays. I miss how much I used to enjoy them. I miss how desperately I used to wait for such occasions every year round. New dress, gifts, family feast, these things used to enlighten me. Those were priceless joy. And now, one happy day is almost a miracle. How just...in couple of years I've become so much bored with all of this! But I was never bored. I was always up to something.  Now look at me.(sigh)

I personally hate facebook because, it creates just a profile of the people I call my friends. And it just blanks all the phone and face to face conversations. And these days, people are sharing way too much. Needless stuffs. That's why I hate it, passionately.
 
Maybe tomorrow morning, after waking up, I'd feel better. I'd put on some lipstick and feel a little joy finding an occasion for a little make-up. And finally after taking random selfies with my cousins and little ones. I might be celebrating eid. And the food oh my god the best part of the day. I am lucky in a sense that, my mom and aunts are pretty good cooks. Yeah, it doesn't have to be so sad. I'll enjoy, life's too short not to.

I wish I could travel the world, and write about it. Because not much happening with me right now. I am hopeless and literature don't feed me anymore, they only make me crave for a life that I don't have. I wanna go to Pizzeria da Michele, Naples and have the world best pizza they serve, I wanna go to Italy and learn Italian like Elizabeth Gilbert did. Literally, I want that portion of her life. And it's practically impossible to swipe lives, so what I could possibly do is to create a life myself, create a wonderful, adventurous life that I cherish, oh-so-much.

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