I'm losing it...The pain. It increased today in a good amount. First I thought it was sinus pain. Then I had fever at noon. And I felt like I was gonna throw up everything I eat. I don't have any idea how bad tomorrow's exam will go. Being sick wasn't an option, I get easily distracted from my study, now how am I gonna deal with this pain?! Luckily it's reduced because I swallowed a pill, but it's left me tired and useless. I feel like I should lie down, give my exam tomorrow in bed.
I don't often lose my temper, but when I do, I do it very badly. I would break down, or cry or scream or cross the limit of the limit I mentally wouldn't ditch. Like tonight, at dinner when I wanted a fried egg and given an omelette instead, I lost it! I lost it pretty bad. I told our bashar bua, who is a very old lady, I told her she's an idiot and what not.Until then I've never scolded our servants who came to work in our house, at least not the old ones. But today I did. And I felt badly afterwards.
Maybe because I'm on my period that's making things seem extreme I don't know. And the exam pressure.God ! Why! Why everything at once...I am an insomniac every night, And it's not making things any easier.
I don't often lose my temper, but when I do, I do it very badly. I would break down, or cry or scream or cross the limit of the limit I mentally wouldn't ditch. Like tonight, at dinner when I wanted a fried egg and given an omelette instead, I lost it! I lost it pretty bad. I told our bashar bua, who is a very old lady, I told her she's an idiot and what not.Until then I've never scolded our servants who came to work in our house, at least not the old ones. But today I did. And I felt badly afterwards.
Maybe because I'm on my period that's making things seem extreme I don't know. And the exam pressure.God ! Why! Why everything at once...I am an insomniac every night, And it's not making things any easier.
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