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burst of summer.

I woke up before anyone in my house, but couldn't leave the bed. Ugh sinus pain since yesterday. Pretty sick.It's freaking hot in my room. And my room is super messy, the bed, the table. Everything. It's been my design actually.
Since I got a room, few things changed. I've become a little adventurous I guess. Everyday I would try out new things, try out new novels, new music.  And I live with music actually. When api was here, I couldn't play music out loud much but now, every hour's a new playlist. And I love it. I love music.
I imagine a lot nowadays. About my future, about myself. I even talk to myself, I know that's crazy. But it's fun. I advise myself, I make myself laugh, I do freaky things like random dance and sometimes even I break things. Like few days ago I broke a glass just to snooze my alarm in the morning. I care less, I doubt myself less. Weird how, things started to change just by getting some space. 

Oh and I almost forgot to tell you, I have a real life stalker. YEAH. He lives next to our house, and he's unfortunately my facebook friend. I added him because his family lived as tenants here in our building for a decade. It's so creepy, whenever I sat beside my window or went to veranda he would knock me on chat. Even just an hour ago he inbox me on facebook asking how my exams are going. So creepy. And he would visit my profile and hit like on an age old picture of me/ What's up with this guy. Even when I don't reply, he keeps on stalking me. I wouldn't mind if he were cute. He's annoying. Really. I just wanna get rid of this creepy stalker and I don't know how to make things more crystal clear that I'm not interested.Seriously should I just inbox him directly- My exams going great. Go fuck yourself.

Okay I am in love with Angus & Julia's music. Oh my god. I might have been playing it a lot, a lot. And now when I am not playing it, I still hear it in my ears. You must be thinking- This chic has gone crazy. I've always been crazy, or maybe I'm just rhapsodizing. Ha. See how I'm using new words like that...I read.



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