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Read through my old diary, of 2012. As it turned out, I was quite sensible when I was younger. And dramatic, I gotta say. But life was easy. My happiness relied on, watching a movie or having touch pad on phones, or just getting to sleep in the weekends.

I have stat exam the day after tomorrow. I haven't started studying yet, for some reason...I feel no need. Haven't I studied enough the whole year, at college just to impress my teacher whom I was hopelessly crushing on...Yeah. So I don't feel it, The rush to finish the syllabus right now particularly this subject.
My sister's exam is gonna end tomorrow, she's so lucky. I have four to go. Then I will be left with the grand one-the admission tests. My life sucksss.

 A moment ago, Anisha came wearing glasses. A 3 year old with nerdy glasses. Can you picture the cuteness? Anisha is at the stage where she repeats every word she catches in her mind, she did so today. I find it cute rather than annoying. She now can speak thoroughly and makes more sense in talking than we grown up sisters do. Cute and stout.Mysha and Anika came along with her too, and we had a nice chat. I realized, I had too much to talk about and I was babbling mostly and they laughed pretty hard. I was useful too. I warned them about duck face selfies going out of style and that sparrow face is trending. And we measured our heights in the mirror at the end. That's what we normally do, whenever we get together. We measure our heights and it's a competition. If Anika is getting taller than me despite the age gap, that it's a matter of concern. Aww how much I missed us goofing around. Mysha turned out to be an anime freak and she kind of opened tabs after tabs in my browser, of Japanese Manga. And Anika I feel she's changed somewhat. Like in a grown-up way. Before, she used to play a grown-up and act all lady-like but now I feel she really has grown. She's funny, she's got kind of down to earth attitude, she's more different.

I thought I almost forgot to talk, thank god they came to pay a visit. I was dying of boredom. We decided a trip after exam, this year. A family trip. And we also planned how to convince and manipulate our parents into this. I am so not studying today. It's so good not studying and thinking about a trip somewhere in the mountains.








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