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I fit into my old jeans! YAY.
I didn't touch the book the whole day and yesterday. This is not good. I have just one exam left and I am not near the preparation for it to go well. I don't know. I guess I am just exhausted of giving exams a month and half ..ugh cut me off some slack, okay.
Yesterday, I accidentally shampooed my hair with johnson baby's. I don't even know what's that doing in our bathroom shelve tho. I mean we're all grown ups in the house. But I smell like a baby! No tears. Feeling cute. Aww.Growing up sucks.

I loathe myself for wasting time like this- so stupidly, randomly. I shouldn't have taken this exams so lightly, I should have studied more and be at least a little serious about this. I am serious but I am not acting on it. I should act more and say less, write less. It's just not happening. Not at all, Like I know this is pointless; writing in this blog, wasting my time, but I just do it anyway. Despite the reason that it will bring me no good. I should be studying on that table right now. OR just sleep like normal people but it's just not happening.(sigh)
And I am kind of depressed lately. I suck at Accounting. It's a main subject and in future maybe, I would be studying on it, or having a degree, I don't know, I said maybe. If I do. It's just wouldn't work out. Because I don't like the subject. I suck at it and I hate it. SO. I don't know what will happen. It's HSC and it's already freaking me out.
I had a chat with Fariha on facebook. Chatting with her is scary sometimes. Because we, mostly I share a lot with her, like A LOT. And she uses her brother's laptop so it's kind of scary because last time, okay guess the rest.
So this is it. Not studying. The time has passed. Tomorrow, I mean today, it's 1am already, is my last hope to get myself focused and complete the whole syllabus. Well, I never succeeded at that, but let's hope.

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