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confession #85

Yesterday I was super inspired. Today, I overslept, depressed about my acne spots and I am on my period. Piece of advice- When you're feeling inspired, take an action.You know, write, blog, do something productive. Because that feeling won't stay long.

Tomorrow is Rag Day of our college.I think it's gonna be boring.*blows a raspberry*

I know this is the time I should build up myself for the board exam and admissions but I NEED A ROOM. Give me a room and I'll study and kick those test's ass. Seriously, when's nanu leaving? How many months or years she's planning to stay? I am a teenager, I need my own space for heaven's sake why doesn't she get it? I am not a eves-dropper but today I kind of overheard her conversation while she was on the phone with khalamoni, I was half in my sleep so didn't hear that clear.But seemed like she's staying here for more. I can't, believe me, every single day I would pray to god for her to leave. She's a nightmare.She interferes every freaking thing. I don't have time for her bullshit, I have so much ahead of me. I need concentration, a room for me to study because I am so easily distracted.

Today at 12 am we're gonna make alpona on the floors of the basement and staircase. Just a part of my sister's wedding preparation. It's gonna be fun. I love paint. Too bad, Anika and Mysha are missing these.They're off to winter trip.





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