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good news! I survived those three tests I've been worrying about.Well better if I say, two and a half test. Sir didn't hand out the MCQ sheets yet, which I'd (hopefully) pass anyway. And even better news: my exams are going to end the day after tomorrow.Can you believe that? Then I'd be shopping for my sister's wedding. Yay. Everything's finally falling back together.

I had just finished watching the last season of Good Luck Charlie. God I loved the series. Charlie's so cute! I gotta say, their show's been a great support through the survival of my finals. A great mental support and my recreation. Not only this show, I had also finished watching Masterchef Us season 6 on youtube during Accounting exam; now on which I've got a clear cut D. Actually, I am happy with my grades as long as I don't fail.

Oh by the way, have I told you about my hidden talent? I am a doodler.Yep.I'd upload some of my doodling but I don't have the pics with me right now. My doodles look like amateur drawings but I am on process to getting better.Those doodles are just for fun, I don't want them to be perfect.

Holiday plans. Hm. I am really looking forward to taking a nap right now, maybe I'd figure something out in my sleep.Ooh you know what, I should expand my bucket list, that could be a time killer. 

x See you after exam. 

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