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confession #88

This is it. My sister has officially gone to her in-law's. We're gonna grow apart. But seeing her smiling today, I was relieved. Relieved that she's doing way better than I thought she would.And at this point I just want her to be happy and healthy.
No I didn't cry today like I did all these days. Tell you what, It's been a nightmare without her. Everything in the house reminded me of her.I haven't gone out since her farewell so it's been really hard on me. We don't do calls or skype. Everyone there was like "You can call her when you miss her." But this is not the relationship we had. We're sisters, we talked face to face, we cuddled in our sleep, we laughed mindlessly,shared secrets,sometimes we fought over serious issues and bonded over silly stuffs. That's how we always were.That's how we communicated and always will.
My life at this point is kind of like it's been through a storm and now it's recovering. And the most important thing I am left to do is bring my utmost concentration on studies because luck favors the prepared.I have to get everything on the line.

By the way, I haven't got my room yet, as expected. I share it with nanu. You know the old proverb that says, patience is bitter but its fruit is sweet- I don't know the exact time or date but I know there will be a day I wouldn't have to share a room.

Oh and I am going to sleep on the flower bed tonight. YAY or NAY? Yay because it smells very nice around the room and NAY because this bed was shared by newly married couple last night. Doesn't it give all the creeps?Eww. Better change the sheets, oh wait my mom has already done it so YAY. Flower bed.The only thing  I am missing right now is a husband to sleep with. And I am so glad that no one in my family reads this blog.  

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