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Confession #41

It’s two days till my pretest exams. And then there’s my sister’s Akht in the midst of it. And as it gets better, my nanu is coming from America to stay with us. Everything is out of my favor.
I suck at being a student, let alone be a good one. And those large syllabus won’t just complete in a day. Luck favors the prepared. I am no near my preparation for the tests. My sis is getting married! Also, I need a room. I need to be stable. I can’t sit and study just like that. I need some privileges, yeah special care. A room! And Nanu would be here soon ruining what’s left of it. Excuse me for being rude, but I just don’t like people staying at our place, I don’t feel at home then. And I get very much distracted. I know she’s family, but still. She’s not the kind of the company I enjoy. I don’t get along with old people. It’s written in my blood. I can’t help it.
So I’d be away for a while.

Confessions #42 

You won’t believe what happened yesterday. My would be brother-in-law came at our place to visit Api. Actually he didn’t enter our house, he just waited up in the basement. The excuse he gave to see Api was of giving her a book. Khaled Hosseini’s  The Kite Runner. How romantic.
I think he’s gonna make a great husband. Seriously. Now I have no worries, he’s a keeper. And the book he gave to api, I was craving to read it all this time. I am so lucky, I can read Khaled Hosseini’s another splendid book solid on paper. It’s a relief seeing the original book because I’ve been reading books on pdf’s format. Now a real book in hand! Thanks to bhaiya!
Oh forgot to tell you the interesting thing that happened yesterday at evening. When Rivu bhaiya came, they both hugged, kissed even. It was just a goodbye kiss as api says to me. Really? Get a room you guys! There were security cams out there in our basement. So at first I thought, omg all of it had been recorded, the hug and the kiss. My sis got paranoid. Because my chachu watches those security cam footage. It’d be really embarrassing for her to caught up in the camera. But luckily she didn’t. At night when we told this to ammu, she figured out that where they were standing was not the position the cam could behold. My sister was so relieved!
But eww. They aren’t married yet and already kissed each other. I know for me to say this doesn’t make sense but I still cannot cope up with the idea of kissing and stuff before marriage. Marrying a non-virgin was my idea, yes and still is. But kissing in front of  a security cam is not my thing. My sister didn’t know there was this cam in our basement though. But she did know it’s a place where people come and go. How can she just let him kiss? Anyone could sneak in and watch the whole situation there anytime. I really blame her on that!

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