Everly

My friend.She's been a tease lately.And sometimes I feel  like  I don't know her anymore.What I knew about her was  she's a straight forward, Grumpy (it's in her blood),hyper,  shy(well not in front of friend's  crowd),Hollywood  freak,honest,fun but not a backstabber nor a bad influence. She's hanging out with me, all normal.But everyday after the college, when I get home, I somehow feel down and depressed observing her impressions toward me.May be because she doesn't know me yet.Unless she wouldn't do such things to hurt me or make me down. I don't feel happy- go- lucky hanging out with her anymore.I don't know why.She was such a good friend of mine.Now she's driving away and I'm letting her.May be it's for the best.I can't afford her to make me less of me. But the problem is that, I can't show off.I can't just avoid her and make her watch that.It's not me.And I have other friends too.So I can't just cut her ...

to be honest, I'm not a stereotype. But there are certain rules that I follow. I don't blend in that much. I don't have much confidence,sometimes I'm insecure, and words hit me than anything else.  I looooooove reading Marilyn Monroe quotes, I've not even watched any of her films yet,but her words inspire me like crazy. When I was a little girl, I always dreamed to live in a big house with my parents,barbie dolls, toys and wear all beautiful dresses and stuff like that.But as I was growing up, I realized that things aren't that easy.Society has it's way of shattering you and your dreams. I was never told I was pretty, whereas I saw other pretty girls treated fairly before me which was offensive.I was a girl too. I had feelings, I deserved to feel special.But everyone would judge you by your face,the clothes that you wear, and all that. Why am I so obsessed about this stupid judgements that society makes? Because I have a story behind it. It's p...

Amelie, An amazing female character from the french movie Amélie Poulain.(2001.) I'm just amused by her characteristics in the movie, how amazingly mysterious she was, and how she took pleasure out of the littlest things in life. A magnificent movie; built on a beautiful plot, with a simple yet magical scenes exquisitely wrapped underneath it.It's gonna warm your heart, leave you with an amazing feeling of wanting to better the world. A must watch movie, definitely worth of 5 stars rating. The movies starts with telling a story, a story of her father and her mother, how they seem so connected in their own specialties, what they like, what they dislike, meaning simple description of a person in a cute way. Then Amelie comes with her sweet introduction. " She's in the middle,yet she's outside"     Amélie likes "dipping her hand into sacks of grains, cracking crème brulèe with a teaspoon, and skipping stones at St. Martin's Cannel...

noun 1. the occurrence and development of events by chance in a happy or beneficial way. "a fortunate stroke of serendipity" synonyms: chance , happy chance,  accident , happy accident,  fluke ;  God has a unique way to surprise us. A unique beautiful way. You know, the more i'm growing, i'm learning that; when you crave for something to happen and when it happens, you just can't get any happier. But when good things happen by chance, and surprise you like crazy, i think that's the awesome feeling you get. because it's beyond your expectations, it's shocking yet satisfactory. i don't know i guess i'd love to fall in this type of sweet accident. :')  “It's a bizarre but wonderful feeling, to arrive dead   center  of a target you didn't even know you were aiming for.”   ―  Lois McMaster Bujold so i would rather let the path guiding me to get a new path.  It's not that i'm completely r...

I got this feeling, you know, after watching Nicholas Sparks movies, it's like, "Omg I'm gonna die alone!"  So today, I watched "Dear John". Incredible. SO Romantic! Just loved the movie. I'm so freaking crushed on Channing Tatum,he's amazing! Made me depressed as well. Because girls like me ain't getting any guys like that, even in a lifetime. He's so freaking hot! God! why i always fall for celebs. They'll never be mine :( Oh i need a shoulder to cry on. Wish i could just cry on Tatum's sexy neck ;( Ahh like that's gonna happen ! :'( You know what! Waiting for your love of life-- that thing sucks! It's so hard, so unpredictable. I'm seventeen, girls on my age --uh i shouldn't say it all. but hey sometimes, i feel so insecure and depressed about being myself. I mean when i see those pretty girls, they get what they want, and they are always rewarded even when they screw up...sometimes i just can't f...

Today i had an orientation arranged by Prothom Alo because of my SSC (GPA5) Result.Well, what can i say? it was so stressful but yes we were also sting by awesome fun. Ahh what a day! I'm so freaking tired right now. The day was started with my mom screaming out loud in the morning (as usual) then i woke up,ugh it was so hard for me, because last night i was drugged by F.R.I.E.N.D.S series dvd on my pc. i got it from my friend ANN. Oh god i couldn't even just take rest i was watching back to back episodes with my sis for like 8 freaking hours. So i was late to get to bed and ended up late in the bus station to Chin Moitree. My friends got into the buses already then. ghosh! i get to be the loner again! but fortunately i got one of friends to sit next to me in the bus so i was relieved. But in the middle of that, the scenario was oh god, my parents and i were screaming like bitches! you know, the arguing stuffs and whatsoever. ugh Just forget it.  So, i got the bus,i got...

Stay Happy. Stay satisfied. Stay cool.  These are easy to say, and tough to be. I really can't remember, the last time when i was fully happy, or smiling or laughing like crazy. I mean seriously, did i stop for a moment and looked back to see how i was holding up with my life? Did i take a moment to feel what i was actually feeling? No. Some how i just skipped the emotional part and continued with the practical. Some how being happy became the least thing i wanted to have in my way towards life. But is it that simple? Leading life without preferring yourself a bit? I think that we all should just stop jostling and getting lost in this worldly life. Just take a moment, see what you've been through and appreciate what you've got. Good or Bad. Wishing and Dreaming- these two are unlimited. Dreaming is good. But sometimes we dream so much that we forget the reality. Then it comes- Depression. Sadness of not getting what we fantasized of. But because of the ugly realit...