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a tiny adventure with myself

Today i had an orientation arranged by Prothom Alo because of my SSC (GPA5) Result.Well, what can i say? it was so stressful but yes we were also sting by awesome fun. Ahh what a day! I'm so freaking tired right now.

The day was started with my mom screaming out loud in the morning (as usual) then i woke up,ugh it was so hard for me, because last night i was drugged by F.R.I.E.N.D.S series dvd on my pc. i got it from my friend ANN. Oh god i couldn't even just take rest i was watching back to back episodes with my sis for like 8 freaking hours. So i was late to get to bed and ended up late in the bus station to Chin Moitree. My friends got into the buses already then. ghosh! i get to be the loner again! but fortunately i got one of friends to sit next to me in the bus so i was relieved. But in the middle of that, the scenario was oh god, my parents and i were screaming like bitches! you know, the arguing stuffs and whatsoever. ugh Just forget it. 
So, i got the bus,i got in,we arrived at the Nandan park, we rode many rides- especially the water coaster (awesome)
It was rainy,muddy so we got so messy, especially me, my toes, ugh! yuck they were so much dirty! :P ewwwww

It was stressful in the rain, to maintain myself over there. it was so crowdy and there were many kinds of people there. So it was hard on us. Me,my friends stick together like glue :P It was actually fun. i never had this kind of experience before you know.

The best part was, when i was finished with my lunch and icecream, i went to see my parents so that i could get home. ok that wasn't what i meant the best part. it comes now- i was searching for my parents,alone,discovering the area, and it was raining like crazy,i was soaked in rain,walking,looking for them...i felt like a very responsible girl. i tasted "freedom" somewhat. It was amazing. no that doesn't mean i'm a loner. just sometimes,i like to be on my own. it feels good :)

Okay you wanna know the awesome part? when i got my parents,my sister and my bro were also there.and guess what? there was a concert and it was raining so we just crawled into it,got into the crowd and enjoyed the concert. Though it wasn't of my fav. singers but seriously i enjoyed it, i screamed,the rain didn't stop even. it was so cold, and now i'm feeling a bit stressed out and fever-ish.

After triple songs we (my family) got into the canteen, drank cups of coffee-ah felt so alive :D then what? on the way home!

To sum up, i'd just say; it was an exhausted day for me but i was mainly exhausted with fun. And i realized again that i enjoy myself in being with my family rather than with friends. And sometimes doing a little tiny adventure alone,can be really thrilling yet fun. :)

I better get going. I'm gonna sleep like a baby tonight! :P



“I know not all that may be coming, but be it what it will, I'll 

go to it laughing.” 

―

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