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Before the finals I get this urge to organize everything, which I think is a nervous behavior. I don't have OCD, I wish I had it sometimes tho. I am too lousy to get this kind of fancy disorder. But.
Tomorrow is my final and I am wasting my time in various tasks-like activity for example, I just finished organizing one-third of my drawer, designated it only for purse and bags, and I also am kind of craving to touch my closet, it would be too much tho, everything's there are in topsy-turvy,and I have too much clothes to fold. So I may pass on that. Tomorrow is my business course final. It is about formats of writing and structures used in corporate world, I feel memorizing them is needless. I don't think I may have a chance to get a job by not applying all these into practical terms. I don't see a point of this course being theoretical at all. It is communication for god's sake. It cannot be learned by answering descriptive questions. At least not by book and tips. You have to grow into it. But I am not natural by born. My communication skills suck.

Anyway I should review all those slides. Well there are theories tho that are not needless. Like how to write a report, you have to study to learn the format and stuff. So I guess I should be studying now. I slept all morning and evening. I think I have some very unhealthy habits. It can be because of the stress, depression, loneliness and there is one percent chance that I might have a brain tumor or something....Good thing I don't have headaches sleeping this much.

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