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confession #94

Home alone is the ultimate peace.

Yesterday Mama's (My uncle.)flight took off. My sister came to visit and we kind of spent the whole day together.She dinnered with us and left at the evening with her husband, deserting our house.
When Mama was leaving for the airport,we three hugged him,said our goodbyes and my mom cried a little.It felt a little odd, because until when Mama was here, this place didn't seem so...vacant. I can't believe I'm actually missing him right now, although he stayed for like what, a month or so?. I've got really fond of him in just a couple of weeks. I wonder what would it be like when Nanu's gonna leave. This place is already so empty without Api.

Anyways so today, they're all off to a relative's house, leaving me home alone and blissfully happy. I got the room to myself, turned on some instrumental music from Relaxing Channel on youtube, already bathed and I am wearing Nanu's Jasmine perfume..it's soothing, I found it in the sink while she's not here to question me right now.I am just cherishing these rare moments. I had grilled duck for lunch that my mom cooked for me. Very spicy. Oh and mashed potatoes. Heaven food. Right now I'm gonna tell bua to serve me up some tea, I am feeling too relaxed, I might fall asleep anytime. This music is so relaxing...

I woke up at 11 am today, had breakfast. Then sat before the pc and started browsing. I watched couple of make up tutorials on youtube today. I have the elf eye product that Mami gifted me so I wanted to try it out. I was like, how hard could it be to put on eye shadows? Yeah well, seeing all those tutorials kind of broke my self-esteem. But I like watching Bethany Mota, she's fucking creative, for her videos are not only about makeups or outfits, I like her DIY's. Those are pretty cool.Although I never tried anything, but watching them is really fun.

Now I am gonna read Fifty Shades Freed. I think Fifty Shades Darker was much more interesting than the two. Anyway so, I'll have my steamy hot tea, and then I'll be under my quilt to do some reading. I'd love some cozy afternoon.

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