I hate it when someone tries to control me. I profoundly hate it!
But there's no way to get away with it now because I have a control freak living in my room for- I don't know how many days, months or years she gonna stay. I am gonna suffocate, seriously. My intuitions tell me, I'm gonna suffocate if I spend another day with her...You know who I'm talking about, right? My beloved grand-ma who thinks I am obliged to her which I am not, I hate it when she tries to get us back on shape. I know I am reckless, lazy and whatever. But she has no right to change me or my habits. I am not an infant. I am eighteen years old, I know my choices, its consequences and I know what to do with my life.
All I want is some space from her, but she happens to always interrupt me with her whole controlling system. I get that she's a senior, I should respect the perspectives she often makes, but still. Why doesn't she understand I don't like it when she tries to change me>? I am not going to change, not when she's wanting me to. Why doesn't she get it, her advises mean nothing to me and I often don't listen to her bullshit? But who am I kidding? She goes on an on and questions my parents every now and then for not raising me right. Shitty woman.
Last night I spent sleeping on the couch away from my own room to get away from her. In the morning I woke up to her scream, that I am not supposed to sleep that long. You have no idea how I was frowning inside while she was crapping me. She even scolded my mother for spoiling me with affection. How dare she! I know she's my family, I should obey her and all that. It's not like I say these things to her face, I don't say a single rude word trust me, just because she's my senior. I've been tolerating her all this time.
I just want a single minute without her trying to control me with everything. Every freaking thing! Made my life a living hell!
But there's no way to get away with it now because I have a control freak living in my room for- I don't know how many days, months or years she gonna stay. I am gonna suffocate, seriously. My intuitions tell me, I'm gonna suffocate if I spend another day with her...You know who I'm talking about, right? My beloved grand-ma who thinks I am obliged to her which I am not, I hate it when she tries to get us back on shape. I know I am reckless, lazy and whatever. But she has no right to change me or my habits. I am not an infant. I am eighteen years old, I know my choices, its consequences and I know what to do with my life.
All I want is some space from her, but she happens to always interrupt me with her whole controlling system. I get that she's a senior, I should respect the perspectives she often makes, but still. Why doesn't she understand I don't like it when she tries to change me>? I am not going to change, not when she's wanting me to. Why doesn't she get it, her advises mean nothing to me and I often don't listen to her bullshit? But who am I kidding? She goes on an on and questions my parents every now and then for not raising me right. Shitty woman.
Last night I spent sleeping on the couch away from my own room to get away from her. In the morning I woke up to her scream, that I am not supposed to sleep that long. You have no idea how I was frowning inside while she was crapping me. She even scolded my mother for spoiling me with affection. How dare she! I know she's my family, I should obey her and all that. It's not like I say these things to her face, I don't say a single rude word trust me, just because she's my senior. I've been tolerating her all this time.
I just want a single minute without her trying to control me with everything. Every freaking thing! Made my life a living hell!
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