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When you have something good inside you, let it be there. let it make its way itself to winning people's heart.
This 18 years of life that I lived and still living, I have encountered various human-beings. Some are family, some are complete strangers and then there's people from school and college. And there were times I had preferably mistaken the good from the bad ones, the real from the fake ones and the honest from the rude ones.
I had always been such a kid, if someone made rude comments about me, I unknowingly kept avoiding that person. No matter how good the person turned out to be, my feelings if they were hurt once, never could be forgotten. And people, their thoughts,they concern me. What they think about me matters to me. It's not that I like to be judged, it's that it helps me to know better of myself. To differentiate what they want from what I want. I myself, constantly judge people in my mind. Actually it's more like observing than judging.

When you have something good inside you, let it be there. let it make its way itself to winning people's heart. That's what I believe. There is no need to show off. And by this I am referring to my Nanu. I know that-nobody's perfect. And perfection isn't something I claim to reality to myself or other people. Nanu definitely has flaws like any other normal human-beings and I have no problem with that. What gives me nausea is her attempt to always influencing people around her. She wants everyone to act accordingly to her way and see the good in her. I get that she's a good, brave woman. I am not denying any of her virtues. But her pride for it, her egoism that ruins what's good left of it. And always interfering, I hate that about her. She needs to stop ordering me around.  

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