Everly

Spread the hate! So there’s some girls in my class, whom I can’t stand. I might behave really “sweet” to them, but trust me, inside I burn! I wish I could just kill them with my bare hands. Don’t worry, it’s all in my head.   Methilda. (I hate her. She’s Ms. Know it all. And such a show off. But Ann kind of worships her. Figures. ) Easy, girl! I get that you’re a genius, I have no problem with that. But I’m completely disgusted by your taste. I mean, okay you’re all over Bennedict and probably one of his crazy stalkers, but we don’t need your updates, bitch! Not everyone like that weirdo. Stop flooding my newsfeed with your shit. Ugh. Mysha Annava I just hate this girl to the infinity. She’s such a drama queen and attention seeker. Always makes fuss out of the simplest matters. The main reason I can’t hate her enough is that she tries to seduce my stat. sir. Yeah, bitch. Like he’s going to fall for your vuri. You don’t have a muffin top sweetheart, you’ve g...

Confession#23 29 th August, 2014 My grandpa died on this date a year ago. I was in college when he passed away. He was feeling sick in the morning that day, and I was leaving for my college. My instincts were telling me that it could be bad news. But I didn’t miss my college for him. Neither my parents told me to do so. So I missed seeing him in his death bed. I last saw him maybe on eid the previous year. He gave me salami. I could remember his old wrinkled smile. His eyes used to sparkle. And I can see how lonely he used to be without dadu. I wasn’t there when he took his last breath. In fact I was barely there the time he was alive. I’m a bad grand-daughter. Really bad. I hardly went down his apartment to see him. I didn’t take care of him. He was there, just one floor beneath us, he was there the whole time. But I didn’t bother to just say hi or ask him about his health. And I chose not to see him at his vulnerable state. Not because I care. But because he ba...

Confession# 21 I’m no good at cooking, I mean I make omelets okay, can boil eggs or what say…pretty much everything. I can cook instant noodles with real passion. I can make tea, coffee. Yeah, that’s pretty much it. I have a thing for ingredients though. I hardly recognize them. Especially veggies. I find most of them look alike. I can’t differentiate potatoes from gingers. They look kind of the same! Cucumbers and Potol. Carrot and Mula.   Dhonepata looks like pudina pata to me. All this time I thought they’re same, their fragments are same so can you blame me? I was making noodles few weeks back and found some leafs in the fridge, I wasn’t sure what it was until then I asked bua, she told me it was pudinapata. She might be illiterate but at some point I’m dumber than her. Cooking is chemistry. And I suck at chemistry. Big time! Confession# 22 When I saw him today in his off white Panjabi, I couldn’t help but stare at him. He’s so…crushable, and he might be ov...

So I was chatting with my friend Ann. We were talking about Jamie Dornan, newest celeb crush, who’s been the leading actor- Christian Grey;   on Fifty Shades of Grey movie.   Okay so Ann uploaded a photo of him, very cute looking. And it appeared on my newsfeed. My mom was passing by the pc and her eyes stuck on the screen, at his photo. I assumed she was observing my newsfeed and I peeked at her and she narrow-eyed me! Obviously, I could read her mind. And I was like- I wish he were my boyfriend, Ma! Nothing I’d ever want so bad. My ammu is impossible. She thinks I flirt with foreigners through the internet. I set Dean’s wallpaper on my phone, so one day it appeared before her and she was like- “Who’s that guy on your mobile?!” Areh. Do you seriously think that a girl like me could ever get a guy like that? And for god’s sake, will you stop suspecting them as my boyfriends? They are celebs, Ma. She’s a real pain in the ass at times you know. So I had this Robi te...

Confession #18 I’ve been busy. Tired mostly. I don’t know what happened to me these days.   And I have so much to confess. I don’t know if I could make it. I’m feverish. And I feel like I’m gonna throw up anytime. My apatite changed. And I have stat exam tomorrow. But I didn’t study a thing. Yesterday I fell asleep in stat class, and sir called me up. I woke up and he asked me if I was okay, If I had fever, If I was having a headache. In reply to his odd queries, I just shook my head three times. Yeah, it was awkward. But he didn’t scold me or anything, he then continued the class on track. And I got into thinking- I was fully okay, I didn’t have a fever, no not that time, my head wasn’t aching. I was deeply asleep in his class which I said it indirectly by shaking my head three times. “Yes, your class is boring!”   Gosh! I should’ve said that I wasn’t okay, that I was having some kind of headache. I would’ve even got some sympathy from him then. And he wouldn’t...

Confession #16 I’ve been busy reading this erotica. It was…I lost my words for it. I’m on the page 151. I couldn’t believe my eyes what I was reading. A book can be that much dirty!?   But I don’t know some parts of it were lovable, sweet and fun. But some were WILD. FREAKINGLY WILD. Ann already finished up and she said the ending is disappointing. I wasn’t actually hoping for a happy ending though. Because whatever Mr. Grey and Anastasia were doing couldn’t end well. Confession #17 I hate the Bangali customs about marriage. I profoundly hate it! I don’t wanna get married here. Hell no. Marry me off to some foreigner in a foreign land please!? I like Spanish guys. Although my mother says she won’t marry me off to someone. She wants me to stay with her for the eternity I guess. Areh. She’s just emotional about api leaving the house.

Ann and I, we started reading Fifty Shades of Grey. It’s an erotica!! I’m on the 3 rd chapter and she’s on 9 th . Not that I’m a slow reader, I started from just few hours ago and she from the last night. Nothing erotic happens so far I’m reading. But she says on page 80 something they already “did” it! And it’s pretty cool.