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We are waiting for a baby to come to this world. My sister's baby girl. Any day now. I can't wait to take her in my lap and hold her tiny little fingers and kiss her soft baby knuckles. I don't know what's with me and baby fingers and toes. I just love how tiny they are!  My sis is getting impatient, normal for a mother. I just hope everything goes well.

I have two quizzes this sunday. Then one homework I haven't even lay my eyes on yet. Then I have Math mid. This week is going to be heavy on me. I guess I have to push myself more, I am not studying in the pressure I should be. Distractions. Internet.

I wish to forget him. Really wish it. For some reason, everyday, the thought of him visits my head and I just can't help it. He is studying hard I can tell. He is rarely online on group chats. I have been frequently online. I don't know I hate weekends now. I crave to see him. Only class days allow me that/ I am a pathetic woman. I really should stop obsessing over him. Can I ever do that? I want to, I swear. I swear on my life, I want to forget him. It's just hard you know. I am trying still.

Everybody else in the house are sleeping except me. I am gonna go to bed soon. After I watch an episode of Greys Anatomy.

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