Lesson of the day: I can trust nobody.
Except the person that has never betrayed me, that I can tell secrets to and he/she will take it to their grave.
I have found that person in life thankfully, and she is my cousin sister.
This isn't the point.
SO today I kind of let Turtle dove down by spilling something to Sumo. I shouldn't have, but I don't know, something about Sumo. Her manipulative skills took it over from me. And I should have known, she would ask Turtle Dove about this matter. And T will get upset with me. I don't think T will ever tell me secrets anymore.
We patched up after. Mainly because, our friendship isn't that old to hold grudges against each other. I don't think she considers me as a friend- like the bestie kind. Always had doubts on our friendship, maybe it's just me. This is the first time she ever told me a secret and I let that out. Not so loyal of me I know....But I didn't let the matter completely out, I basically, gave a notion. But I should have known, sumo isn't quite the person to tell other people's secret to. To even tell my secrets to. I am just a bit insecure now. Turtle dove has been nothing but good to me.
You know, sometimes I think. I should take separate courses.Be with people who only cares about studying. Be with those who works hard. Who talks less about movies and hangouts. Then there would be less drama.
I wish I had never met these people. I am not a complicated person. I am an easy one. I don't understand if you tell someone a secret it slips out and circles back.
Turtle dove isn't the person I show my soul to. She is the kind of person who will judge me for who I am. Who will know there's something wrong with me before looking for the second time. I like people who doesn't define other people.
I thought I was happy with the people I am with.
But they suffocate me.
Except the person that has never betrayed me, that I can tell secrets to and he/she will take it to their grave.
I have found that person in life thankfully, and she is my cousin sister.
This isn't the point.
SO today I kind of let Turtle dove down by spilling something to Sumo. I shouldn't have, but I don't know, something about Sumo. Her manipulative skills took it over from me. And I should have known, she would ask Turtle Dove about this matter. And T will get upset with me. I don't think T will ever tell me secrets anymore.
We patched up after. Mainly because, our friendship isn't that old to hold grudges against each other. I don't think she considers me as a friend- like the bestie kind. Always had doubts on our friendship, maybe it's just me. This is the first time she ever told me a secret and I let that out. Not so loyal of me I know....But I didn't let the matter completely out, I basically, gave a notion. But I should have known, sumo isn't quite the person to tell other people's secret to. To even tell my secrets to. I am just a bit insecure now. Turtle dove has been nothing but good to me.
You know, sometimes I think. I should take separate courses.Be with people who only cares about studying. Be with those who works hard. Who talks less about movies and hangouts. Then there would be less drama.
I wish I had never met these people. I am not a complicated person. I am an easy one. I don't understand if you tell someone a secret it slips out and circles back.
Turtle dove isn't the person I show my soul to. She is the kind of person who will judge me for who I am. Who will know there's something wrong with me before looking for the second time. I like people who doesn't define other people.
I thought I was happy with the people I am with.
But they suffocate me.
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