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I heard they broke up.
Nothing is the same about him. He is so...quiet. And suddenly so cold. Like he does not say hi to anybody or have a conversation. This is so brutal on him. I can't see him like this. He didn't tease me like he used to. He didn't laugh at me. Nor played the shadow game just to make me hear how annoying I sound. I know this isn't about me but I just can't bear the fact that he is hurt inside. He has been betrayed by the girl he loved and still loves so passionately.

I also heard things about her. Things that he might not know.
I heard she'd been having second thoughts about him and almost dated someone. All has been heard that, people in her class didn't even know she had a boyfriend. I know this isn't my place to judge but she made herself look available to other guys. This is disgusting. If she wasn't committed to singer guy she should have told him about it sooner, just a message saying I don't love you anymore isn't something a guy would expect after 5 years relationship. She was cheating on him. This is all I heard today from Turtle dove- she had heard from her friend who is friends with singer guy's girlfriend aka ex so....I don't know yet. Turtle dove is pretty sure about their relationship not working anymore, but somehow I feel that she might come back to him. Nobody will love her like he does. But I don't think this would be right. He deserves someone who will not take his love for granted.

I don't know why I am so invested in this. Why I feel hurt when I see him hurt. Why I want that evil bitch to come back and love him. What would she get by hurting him this bad??
I just heard one side of the story.  Maybe I am judging her too much. Maybe it is the ambience, change of friend circles that made her think she is with the wrong person. People change.I am in his side tho.
He didn't tell us anything.The breakup is still unofficial. He just sits there quiet. Hurting. He told his guy friend he is closest to and that is how turtle dove and I know.
Turtle dove said, he is still holding on.
This is terrible. He loves her so much. He doesn't deserve this heartbreak, no.
I can't see him in pain.




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