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Everything sucks except the fact that I have a baby in the house. I get hypnotized just staring at her. So innocent. So pure.

I want to leave everything, everyone.

 I want to be alone, talk to nobody. Sick and tired of being reminded to study, to eat, to shower, to wake up. My parents,grandma, literally everyone in the house are doing that to me. Why can't they just let me be.

I don't know why I am suffering. I crave to be alone. Crawl into a black dark tunnel and just stay there forever. I didn't wanna wake up today. My dad threatened me that he would beat me up if I didn't. Now I am hating every moment I am awake. I hate the fact that I have mid on sunday and I haven't studied a bit. I hate the fact that I am not doing the way I should in life.

I want to find some tranquility. I seek for patience.
I yet don't know how to stop this ache.
It's not that there is no reason feeling like this. There is. My house is full of people. And I want to be alone for a while. I know they're family. But I am just not feeling like living anymore. They don't understand that I need some space...They have to interfere. They have to make me feel like I am the problem.

Today is his birthday and. I don't know. I don't know what I'm thinking. I wish we never met. I wish that day at tarc, he never said hi. We never got introduced. I wish that he never sang, and I never fell in love with him. I wish this whole thing never happened. I was living my life just fine.

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