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Umm...What can I say.

It all started last night. I was surfing youtube typically as I do and I ended up watching too much The Bachelor in Paradise, And it's a couple reality tv show; so much drama involved. Oh my gosh, you have no fucking idea, I spent whole night watching it. Today I went to university sleep deprived, all I could think about in the class was, get back home and finish the rest of the episodes. Gosh I've got so invested in this. I should stop but I can't, tomorrow I have a presentation and thinking about it gives me butterflies so I just take my mind off a bit watching these so called hypocritical love shows. But no seriously I should stop.

I mean I gotta say watching it actually made me see how love is actually so delusional. And I am an Ashley I. SO there's this girl in the season I am watching, she's 27 years old, literally a child living in adult's body and she almost cries in every freaking episode over a guy named Jared. So he's freaking hot. Perfect jawline, he has like breath taking gorgeous face you can just die for. And Ashley is virgin and she's a roller-coaster of emotion. She brought her sister along with her in the show because she's just so insecure with herself with guys. But legitimately, she's got no personality. Like whenever she's with him, all she could say is "You look really cute. You are hot" and stuff. And then whenever a new girl comes in the paradise, she gets like overprotective of him, steals him on dates and it's just..so childish. And Jared literally told her they had no chemistry but still she just desires him to death and every time he tries to break up with her she sobs like crazy- I don't know I find it hilarious. And in the last rose ceremony, the episode I was watching after the first attempt of her break up, she wrote a letter, Long back and front letter to Jared to figured out her emotions I mean how fucked up is that....Every time she has a breakdown. But I am kind of disappointed when Jared left, he's the reason why I was mainly watching it. He's just so eye-pleasingly beautiful. I think I would probably go all Ashley-I over him. I feel her tho.

Now I am taking a break, it's just too much to handle. Too much. You get me.



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