Everly

Once in a while you meet a person that makes you smile when you think about them. They're trouble. Stay away from them.

Nanu might be leaving for America on the second week of February. I nearly did a victory dance! I am a selfish grand-daughter...*chuckles*. I simply can't just let her be a part of my every day post.  Let's talk on a very different subject. I feel so lonely these days. My friends are super busy with studies and all. Api had deserted me. And trust me, my mom isn't the right person to talk to. She screams the hell outta me. And nanu- okay.  the previous post I made it pretty clear how I feel about her. My brother literally is a non-existent, buried in his computer programming skills. And my dad is very motivational, my favorite person to talk to when I die in boredom but let's be honest -I need a galpal. So most of my time are spent on stalking people on internet. I don't actually stalk, I simply investigate. And it's super fun. I almost have known the lives of these people, sometimes I feel like I know them from heart to heart. You know not in just photos or...

silly,silly girl. He never really loved you.  how can the devil be pulling you toward someone who looks...so much like an angel when he smiles at you? 

SO I'm done with Fifty Shades Trilogy. Now that I've finished it, I've to say, these books took quite a time off me. Anyways, I am glad that I have put off one task out my daily routine, Now I don't have to linger on bed thinking there's chapters left to be read, or itching in suspense what happens in the end with Anastasia and Christian's life. So I took the whole day,buried myself to it and completed Fifty Shades Freed. Task fully, thoroughly done. I am happy now. But some things today got me very ill-tempered. Ammu and nanu were very disapproving of my lifestyle. Not that they weren't earlier before. Nanu behaves like I need fixing, crucial fixing. It just...disgusts me.I don't know when will she ever stop defying me, I hate when someone does that. Keep your criticism inside your head. Doesn't she know this little courtesy? And how could she blame it all on my parents saying-"You aren't brought up right. If I were to raise..." Wha...

Yesterday was crazaaaaay! Um...okay first just let me take a moment to digest all the embarrassment I had to face in front of my cousins, brothers, brother-in-law and I hope there weren't as many people. *inhales* Moment's taken. So cutting to the heart of what happened last evening. Let's just say, I didn't see it coming...coming out of my mouth. SO, My big brother just got sprayed by my spit and I am telling you. it was absolutely accidental. I don't wanna explain it any further or discuss the aftermath of the incident, because I have embarrassed myself enough already. And the memory hasn't erased yet so it replays through my mind every special occasion (esp. when I'm up for a soft drink) and I just can't stop giggling. RIP what's left of my reputation. I AM THE GIRL NOW, WHO SPITS WHILE SHE TALKS. So back off everyone! Oh and Fariha and I had a sleepover at moon apu's place. You have no idea how effortless we can be when it comes to gos...

Nanu is feeling a little better today. I had ICT practical at college this morning. And other stuffs. Just normal routine. And the afternoon I cuddled with my brother's Ipad, finished reading some pages of Fifty Shades Freed. Still not done with the book.  What, can you blame me? It consists 592 pages, I have 300 something left then I'll be done with the trilogy.But I've already read some reviews and watched a very funny video on courtesy to its plot that said- this book is all kind of depressing..blah blah blah. I already know some of the stuffs that's happening on the book. When I read a fiction that is too long, I can't resist myself from the spoilers. It's because I am impatient and curiosity kills me. Anyway so back to the book review. Those weren't up to the mark though,I thought as its the last part of fifty shades trilogy, there'd be more positive feedback.I don't maintain any certain rules reading fictions. I read what interests me. I ...

Woohooo my sister is home and she's staying the night. Oh how much I missed that pretty face!Nanu did the same old "married joke" when Api tossed herself on bed, exhausted after she came home from shopping...Nanu was like "Why do you look so tired these days? Are you expecting?" Bahhaahaa. I am a little concerned about the time I'm idling away. My HSC is on April. This month I've wasted on sleeping, and watching youtube videos. And the February on the other hand has just 28 days, and On March I'll be on too much pressure to study anything.OHHH GOSSHHH this is crazy. I haven't studied anything yet. This is bullshit. I should go. Make myself a steamy cup of coffee and then head back to my table. Because I have to survive those tests. No exit. 

This song is playing over and over, on repeat to my playlist. I can't get it out my head. The lyrics are beautiful,the music is so dreamy, and Ed Sheeran's voice is darn sexy.so addictive. Just in love with it.

Nanu is really sick since yesterday. I'm starting to worry about her. I don't know what happened to her though, but I just want her to get well and soon be all happy and healthy. I know I have said some rude things about her in this blog, like VERY rude things. Now which makes me feel ashamed of myself.No matter how bossy and interfering she is, in the end she is my grandma, and in the end I'll always wish for her well-being.And I believe, love can cover multiple of sins. From the past few months, I started to get along with her, her self-esteem. Yet surprisingly, all those things about her that used to bother me like crazy don't really bother me anymore. In fact, she now seems completely tolerable and an admirable person to me. The bottom line is- I never really bonded with old people so she's a first on the list of I've ever bonded. And I truly, solely wish her of sound health.

Okay let me get this straight. I am kind of in love with multiple characters. When I say love, I mean tough love. Don't worry, I haven't deserted one sided crush on McDreamy yet. He counts... So moving on to the second guy, I recently fallen for. He is our another subject teacher, and I know this is second grade but pfft I really don't care. I like attractive people. He's a little younger than McDreamy so a plus point, a little benefit in our age gap. Not that in love, age matters, but you know how crazy it sounded in my head at first when I thought I am starting to like him a bit? I thought something's wrong with me.Because this particular guy, a year ago,seemed so annoying to me. Now he's my opposite attraction. How stupid is that. 

I'm having this lingering, throbbing headache since I woke up today. Ugh. I don't know. maybe it's of migraine or maybe it's time to get my eyes checked. I am already minus power 3, so better hope it's just migraine. When I am all stressed out I usually go and turn on some random music,sing along and dance. But I can't right now, my room is all blocked. Since Nanu moved in, my urgent crisis of dancing behind the mirror with some random music on in my bedroom- switched to the bathroom floor. I know I'm weird. Anyways. so today went kind of...uh ...yeah that explains itself. I woke up, overslept and still wanting to sleep but my dad. he pulled me out of the bed like a luggage bag and kind of swept me on the floor. Yeah that's how my morning started.  So I was instagraming on my phone this evening, and some pictures with api flashed back on the screen, seeing her face on those pictures, I don't know, I just couldn't stop myself. It was hard not...

I don't know what's gotten into me nowadays, I am trying to follow a healthy lifestyle. I feel extra conscious about sleeping proper 6 hours at night, just to get rid of my dark circles. And I've gone ever so dramatic over cleansing and moisturizing my skin...If you'd searched my web history, you'd find a bunch of stuffs about lotion reviews.And yesterday, my mom got so crazy over me because I bathed around an hour in shivering cold.And now I have a tendency of cleansing and moisturizing my face every half an hour. okay this has gone too far. I should probably stop. I guess I'm up for a change. This year has started so fast, as to me, I didn't see it coming. Nothing really feels anew. To bring out the new year spirit, I have decided to go for a change. Change of my routine, lifestyle, music taste and read more books than I usually read. I think a change is all I need right now. Because I went through some really chaotic situation past few weeks, I need ...

Home alone is the ultimate peace. Yesterday Mama's (My uncle.)flight took off. My sister came to visit and we kind of spent the whole day together.She dinnered with us and left at the evening with her husband, deserting our house. When Mama was leaving for the airport,we three hugged him,said our goodbyes and my mom cried a little.It felt a little odd, because until when Mama was here, this place didn't seem so...vacant. I can't believe I'm actually missing him right now, although he stayed for like what, a month or so?. I've got really fond of him in just a couple of weeks. I wonder what would it be like when Nanu's gonna leave. This place is already so empty without Api. Anyways so today, they're all off to a relative's house, leaving me home alone and blissfully happy. I got the room to myself, turned on some instrumental music from Relaxing Channel on youtube, already bathed and I am wearing Nanu's Jasmine perfume..it's soothing, I foun...

SO this year started off without my sister and I was pretty much over the fact until we encountered the last time, when she hugged me so tight and kissed both my cheeks and almost the corner of my lips. I was like..."Look at us. We've almost lip-kissed." And the work there was done, I got to see her precious smile, a smile which I had been craving for weeks. It made me realize, how much I missed her all these days.  You know this isn't how I planned 2015 would go. Mama took us for a family trip the other day. A trip without Api. Does it sound any fun? All I could think about in the car was the last year's trip we had with api and I couldn't hold my tears falling down my cheeks.I don't think I'd ever have fun without her being with me every where I go. She was the one, the only one who understood every little piece of me.The one whose sweet interruption while taking selfies never bothered me a bit. I thought today, we'd get to meet, because Mama w...