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confession# 75

I am quite over the thing now. Although it lingered on my head the whole day. The more I think of it the more it pains me, so I decided not to go there. I am gonna pretend nothing really happened like everybody else in the family.I don't have to make a fuss out of it. Right now I am gonna focus on my studies. I have to pass every subject.I am okay now. Maybe it was the exam pressure that got me more depressed yesterday. I just had to sleep on it.

So.Today at college, they served us the wrong question paper. They mistakenly gave us the first paper question which we were about to be giving exam on December. How awesome is that?! The teachers told us to give the papers back but we were reading the shit out of it. At that time I wished I had a photographic memory. Then I could take a snap and store it for the coming exam and score! The girl behind me was like - "Put it on your pocket!I won't tell anyone!" Ah well we didn't have to. Mcdreamy got furious. He sent us out the field. We spent there an hour until new question paper was made and printed out.
Ah, sometimes, I like surprises.
I don't know is that of god's will or anything I rather call it a blessing; today was going absolutely unpredictable. When I was totally agreed that I wouldn't get to see Mcdreamy today, he appeared right before me.What happened was, as he is the subject teacher he had to go a lot of trouble with the question paper thing. He had to go to every class and ask if there was any problem.There was a tinnie-tiny printing mistake which he corrected us just standing out the door, you see, all I could get was just a snap of him. He was on duty to guard the class next to us.So he had to hurry and I kind of got upset, I wanna see him a bit closer and proper. Before leaving, he asked if anybody got problems with the question and luckily the girl beside me raised her hand. YAY! So he came right beside me, looked at the question paper in my hand and turned out the problem she had wasn't actually a problem.It was a bloop. But hey, I got to see my McDreamy up close.I think I have some magnetic power in me,don't ya think? I happen to drive him closer no matter how far apart he might be.Overreacting? Overreacting.   

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