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Confession#48 Today at private I put down my hair. And he noticed. He called me Maggie noodles. Because my hair’s too curly. But he noticed! Confession#49 So my exams are over by yesterday. Fariha came and we kind of practiced dancing for Api’s holud. It was really fun. I had so much planned for after exam weekend. Now look at me, I’m unproductive. When the exams were on I told myself that I would start reading The Kite Runner in the weekend. That I would check out every possible dancing moves for api’s holud on youtube and start dancing. Well I already danced last night but I don’t think it was enough. Learning just few steps won’t do. I was supposed to watch movies now, but this “guest” in my room is napping all the time. She’s a total control freak.

Confession #47 I woke up to a dream last night, at the dawn, a really weird dream. I saw Animesh sir (the khaet one I have zero interest in) tickling my tummy! EWW. Okay the dream ends here. When I woke up, I was like WHAT THE FUCK just happened?! And felt so relieved that it was just a dream. Then I went to college to give exam and guess who’s on guard? The person that tickled me in my dream last night! UGH. Was that telepathy? But he’s never in my mind before. I clearly hate him. Then after the exam I went to the private with Ankan and Adi. He was there, unfortunately. I was preoccupied by math’s so when Ankan gave me the files to sign I kind of got “UFF!” and thrown it away. And sir saw me going all hyper so he came to me and tapped me on the head and said, “Baby, cool!” This was even worse than the dream I had. >.< I don’t like anyone patting me on the head unless It’s kamruzzaman sir. Okay you’d probably be thinking: Who the heck is Kamruz… ? He’s the “Stat” sir...

Confession #45 Childhood crush. Just 4 or 5 years back I had my career planned. I wanted to become a RJ. *giggles* And also I was crushing on this guy called Anik Khan, he’s mainly a poet. But he used to come to this radio show Foor-Foor-Foorti and I was a diehard fan of his voice and attitude. After like years I got to see his picture on facebook, and couldn’t match his voice to his face. I was like, really?! He has a wife now and follows me on instagram. Confession #46 I am really trying to adjust with nanu, but it’s not working for me. She’s planning to live here for one and a half year. If she does that I am gonna suffocate. She’s been here only couple of weeks and I am already out of my breath. I want my room to be my room. It’s messy, let it be lady! Why is she always with complaining and complimenting and suggesting and advising things? I can’t tolerate this anymore. Really. She was talking on phone a while ago with my khalamoni from abroad. She was like- Th...

I’ve been through crazy days! Tell me how many days I’ve been away? 2 weeks or 3 maybe? And I have so much to say, I’ve been craving for confessions, suffocating and praying for this chance to sit behind my pc and type all out.   So my sis got married on 19 th September, I had ict exam the day after. Long story short. I’ve been through hell and back. I slept like 2 hours the day before exam and I had only 3 or 4 hours in the morning for exam preparation. So I am just hoping that I wouldn’t fail this time. My exam was not that bad either. I think I am gonna pass to a marginal line. J First thing first. The wedding (AQTH) I had parlor make up on and looked so weird. I don’t look so bad in the pictures though. And my sis, she looked one hell of a bride. Very much bridish. She had this pinned up hairstyle, wore magenta saree. The color suited her good. She looked really bright and pretty. And about the groom. He looked really young and cute. Both looked cute actually. They ...

My life is at stake now. Nothing can describe my situation well enough. The preparation for my sister's wedding is an on going process also an utter distraction to my studies. As you know, I'm giving my pretest exams, deprived of sleep at night because of the new adjustment made. My nanu is staying with us for like-I don't know, months maybe. And I haven't coped up with that. My sister and I in one room is enough disturbance. Plus, I don't really bond with old people. The problem with my nanu is. she can't tolerate heat, so she turns on the ac at night sets it in like 17 temp, also the two fans on full speed., Can I sleep like that? It's just been one night and I am coughing already. Tomorrow, 19th sept is Api's Akhd. And I am gonna give english exam without any preparation. And then after the big day I have ict which I had a f mark on promotion test so I cannot take chances on failing again. But as my preparation's going, I might fail. Utterly f...

Confession #41 It’s two days till my pretest exams. And then there’s my sister’s Akht in the midst of it. And as it gets better, my nanu is coming from America to stay with us. Everything is out of my favor. I suck at being a student, let alone be a good one. And those large syllabus won’t just complete in a day. Luck favors the prepared. I am no near my preparation for the tests. My sis is getting married! Also, I need a room. I need to be stable. I can’t sit and study just like that. I need some privileges, yeah special care. A room! And Nanu would be here soon ruining what’s left of it. Excuse me for being rude, but I just don’t like people staying at our place, I don’t feel at home then. And I get very much distracted. I know she’s family, but still. She’s not the kind of the company I enjoy. I don’t get along with old people. It’s written in my blood. I can’t help it. So I’d be away for a while. Confessions #42   You won’t believe what happened yesterday. My...

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