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 I am in luteal phase and everything my husband doing is irritating me. 

It is all scientific I know but still everything is so annoying and I just wanted pizza. He ordered biryani. 

I wanted to go on a date on valentines day. He brought me flowers, which was sweet but he forgot to book the restaurant and we ended up going costco instead.

I just feel like I am wasting my best years on him. Is it normal to feel like that. We are almost 2 years into our married life and I already miss our initial chemistry. I feel like we are being like an old married couple. It shouldn't feel like that, right? I mean, it is still new; we aren't that old yet. 

I feel so bored honestly, and disappointed. 

Again, this could be because of my luteal phase. 

I am sad too. 

I wish, he made a little more effort to make me feel special. Make me feel deserving. I wish I didn't dress up to do our groceries on Valentines day. 


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