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 Dear B,


Thank you for sticking up with me all these years. Although you're just a space for me to record my thoughts, I still count you as something. My digital therapist, maybe? 

Happy New Year! 

I think I speak for everyone when I say, 2020 was one hell of a ride. We did get a fleeting moment of happiness before pandemic took over the world. Not entirely bad, maybe mostly bad mixed with good and a lot of life teachings and lessons. 

I am grateful that I survived it with my family and friends and here we are, seeing the face of 2021, sounds so futuristic, I hope we overcome the pandemic and get back to the days where we can hug each other again without worrying about getting infected.

Obviously, the expectation set for this year would be much less than the previous, but I do hope for better days ahead. Maybe I am not so ambitious or materialistic now, the end goal for 21 would be to survive and be content and find my inner peace.

I love that, I haven't lost my motivation to come back here.

I love that, I am still hopeful despite being broken couple of times. 

Here's to the uncertainty, 2021! Make us or break us but don't stop us!


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