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The weather is super gross. I loathe my new class routine. I don't come back home till it's dusk and it is pretty much exhausting. Been only 4 days and I already have a feeling this semester is gonna suck the life out of me.
But one thing for sure. I have got inspiring teachers for my two major course. My marketing teacher said she was an introvert for years, but this subject changed her rapidly. I am so inspired by her. How she creates this amazing energy in the class. I feel like I can become anything.
My finance course teacher is a sweetheart. He is so calm in the class and speaks in a very soft tone and I can't help but just be giddy in his class. I think I am gonna have a long lasting crush on him.
Hope it doesn't mess up my grade.

So Fall 2018 begins. I am thrilled. Every semester is a new beginning. 
Time to transform and forgive and forget. 

Music Guy is so dramatic these days like I can't even. I remember I used to play all giddy around him in Tarc, because he seemed so attractive, like there was an it factor in him. This semester I have to see him more often and I don't think I like that, because around him I am like this super quiet person and I just like to be around my comfort zone who are Turtle Dove and Batman. I can't be myself around him and I don't like that. I wish he didn't exist.

My father is gonna take on a project with family loan. Whoever reading this please pray for him. Business is a lot of pressure. I am gonna try my best to mold myself into a person who works hard and succeed in life because I have to give my parents some rest. They're going through enough. Pray for me too!

I miss my niece everyday. I utter her name everyday since she left for abroad. I see her in photos and clips and I almost feel like she is gonna grow up to be someone amazing. Her birthday is next month and I am gonna miss her so much, it's gonna pain me right to the core. 

Should I cut my hair short? Like really really short? 
Oh and may I mention I am in quest for a good quality man on Tinder (YEAH I KNOW XD). This time, I am gonna be super strict about my standards and I am not gonna melt for words like "You don't have to thank me for looking this pretty" or "You're very articulate" 
NO. I am gonna look at job prospects, future expectations, behavior with women, past mistakes, life choices, Intelligence, humor, looks( I mean based on how photogenic he is), Quick wit, reply rate, basically everything before adding him on whatsapp. 

So wish me luck!









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