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New Semester!

I had Accounting and Marketing today, and I was never so focused in class! This semester break had me transformed into a sincere student, yeah.

I didn't go on that date with Demon, we never discussed it ever again. He sent me snaps for a day or two but I got scared and stopped hitting him with texts. I guess I am not ready, for a Date. I don't know if I'll ever be...I am so bad at conversations with guys...Literally...And the unknown scares me....I don't want to deal with a phase of awkwardness to have something going on in the name of an affair...I guess I am not ready for love yet. Not my cup of tea.

I think what is most attractive about a guy to me is the effort he makes. That shows he cares. And if he wants me, he takes action. I have met a fair amount of guys who were attracted by me but didn't do a single wretched thing about it. Actions speak more than words do. I don't know about other girls but this is me, and this is when I feel I am loved and feel the need to reciprocate.

I guess a part of me still wants Demon to not give up yet. If only he could show me he is bigger than his ego. Maybe I would've considered to meet him. My guts tell me, he is not worth it. I am following my guts. 










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