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SO this year's birthday was low key. But I don't have any complaints. I kinda like being in my pajamas, eating leftover chocolate cake while watching tv series. I am so blessed that I am alive at this point and have my family and friends all with me. In the present this is what I cherish.

On a complete different note. Do you know, Channing Tatum and Jenna Dewan separated? I mean talk about soul mates. This is actually very sad because I used to ship this celeb couple so much that I named my blog after their baby girl. This must be hard on Everly. Seeing parents separate must be traumatizing.

Umm, so the Demon guy is on my snapchat now. Texting is difficult. You never know what the other person is interpreting and actually saying. So far, I think he is not so serious, or could be but he barely asks me any personal questions. I've got to know he was a drop out in his junior year. And started his own business but I don't know if he is successful in what he's doing. At this point, I have no clue whatsover. Let me just see what happens. I mean meeting new people isn't a bad thing.

I gotta save my semester and study but oh god how difficult it is to focus when I have recess before finals.


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