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I've been watching Modest Street channel on youtube. It's of a woman who does hijab styling and makeup. She is a revert to Islam and I had watched her revert story and it kind of got into me how I lavishly spent my time doing nothing and this lady, searched for the truth and right direction and I don't know but something about her face, her way of perceiving things motivated me. I want what she has. She looks so peaceful in what she's preaching. It is not like she hasn't got problems in her life. I mean she has five kids to take care and from her social media, I am assuming she's separated with her husband but she doesn't go whining about her personal life instead she puts on an inspiring face toward life and that is something.

I feel like I have gotten very personal because I've been religiously watching her daily snapchat stories and she is super active in it, she batters a lot. She also speaks in sylhoti accent ( She is half gujrati and half kenyan, her husband was from Bangladesh) so I find it very funny when she talks in Bangla, better than us locals. And I got to say, I am now hooked in her channel and I have also decided to reconnect with my  religion, seek what she has sought and found peace in.

Through her videos she taught me, whatever is making you feel troubled at heart right this moment, the first thing is to accept it. Not accepting the problem and being in constant denial, creates more problems.

I wish I could say how much I am obsessed with her now. She is like a god sent angel. I feel so positive after watching her day to day videos. :)







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