spring is almost here

Apparently I am in short of 2 marks to get my grade changed to A. Sir has not replied my mail, nor has he uploaded gpa on the website. So I am kind of in an anxious situation, I check my grades every now and then, I need that A for validation, he has been a difficult faculty.

Other than that, my life is going quite well. I am pumped up to meet Demon, YES, we've decided a place for a meet up, right by my house, there's this bookstore and I suggested it because my mom is not going to let me borrow car, even she does she would ask me thousand questions on my whereabouts. He insisted we meet so I honestly told him about my situation with my protective parents and told him about the bookstore, He is not psyched about the place but eventually agreed....

I am so scared. I never ever been on a date before. And I don't know him that well. It is going to be awkward....I don't feel much going on for him, I feel like if I knew him more, it would've been less scary...But he is like, that's the point, we will meet like the pre internet era, and know each other the old style, would be authentic...Little does he know, how introvert I can be with new people....I am so much in denial, I am like telling myself let's cancel it, it is not gonna be worth it...He says week days are tight for him so he is going to try on weekends, That means next week, OH MY GOSH. I am so nervous.

I can't tell my friends about him because right at this point I feel nothing for him...It is just my curiosity to try something new, and for me this is the craziest thing to do. Meet a stranger from internet...And what would I say? We chatted for like almost a month, and that's it? It's not even a good story...I would test the water before telling it to everyone, if he sweeps me off my feet, if we find each other attractive and worth going out, I would tell T and B and my cousin sister about all this. There's a low chance of that because I already feel this date is going to turn into a disaster.

P.S:Got A on my management course :)