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Music Guy was furious when he learned that we'd been making fun of him and Riley behind his back. Makeup Girl told him. She thought he would take it as a joke. But it brought all kinds of drama. He hates us now. I mean by the look of his face and his aloof behavior I think we reached a conclusion. He is never going to be nice with us again... He doesn't understand the fact that, it was not about him, it was about Riley and Freddy's relationship and her desperateness that was so visible and we made fun of that not him. Nalu was right, He is a drama queen.

Anyway, I was bored and had to inform you about how's things going with my social life...My niece is leaving for Canada in 12 days and I can't imagine how much depressed I am going to be without seeing her that long, not being able to physically see her grow up and talk....Oh gosh that's gonna be tough.

I have dyed my hair, it is kind of golden-hazel now- only at the ends. I don't look too bad. Enjoying the compliments on my new look.

Valentines Day was the most unproductive day I had...I slept, didn't go to class because I just didn't feel like it. Sometimes I wonder, if I had a boyfriend will things be easier? Will I feel lively more often than dull? I mean yeah the idea of it is nice. But in reality, I don't think I am much of the girl who could invest in relationships, being an introvert kind of person, I don't think I'd have much to offer...I would shut him up rather I guess but yeah sometimes, I do feel like there's something missing. Should I give another try on those dating apps? But all the creepy guys live there. I don't wanna. :-(




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