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So we are moving the day after tomorrow.
I have been here for such a long time. This is the problem you see. We overstayed. Humans should not settle in one place forever. I don't wanna rot here, obviously not. So it is the best decision, undoubtedly.

Anyhoo. Singer Guy has become some kind of a celebrity by this video he shared of him, singing old tvc jingles with his ukulele. I think by now it has exceeded 100k on the shares and I don't know about the likes. But it is a huge deal. I mean he has such talent, hasn't been portrait the way it could reach widely to people, until now. Lately, he has been getting a lot of attention. Which is good. I bet he needs it. I mean it could help him get over his ex fully. It could, right?  Today he was like "chicks are dropping like *insert sprinkling salt expression* (salt bae meme) And I couldn't help but smile seeing him in a good mood.And guess what. A friend of T is also crushing on him. She saw him sing that evening at the rooftop of T on her birthday, and it just melted her heart. I mean, he gotta stop being everybody's crush. It is kind of annoying. I totally think he is being overrated at this point.

As a friend I am proud of his recent success in wining so many hearts, mostly of girls'. But if I think as a girl and as someone who's had a long term crush on him, I am somewhat jealous. okay you know what? I am jealous as fuck. He has suddenly got so much attention and it is threatening. What if he gets into a relationship again. I mean he has pretty good options now. It would wreck me. Gosh why do I take pleasure in seeing him single and left alone?

I am trying to get over him. I have always tried. It is just so hard. You know how I felt going to class after the break and see him before my eyes again? It felt like this is how I should feel everyday. This is what I look up to. Meeting him again and talk randomly uselessly on unimportant topics for small talks. UGH. It is frustrating. It has been almost a YEAR. GOD I NEED A GUY. BLESS ME WITH A GUY IN BIO CLASS.. I wish to meet someone in this courses I take each fucking semester. I gotta find someone before I graduate and before I lose my virginity to a total stranger on my wedding night.








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